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» Faith & Trust

Saturday, January 14, 2012

~ 6:03 PM ~

I've been rotting at home, doing nothing besides reading and reading. And guess what I finished another book, entitled " When God Doesn't Make Sense"
It was quite interesting and addictive.
This is a really good question to ask, "Does God really make sense?"
I have a friend that told me that religious belief is merely a kind of psychological effect that somewhat bring calmness and assurance to the mind. Is it true?
Is religion real? Or is it just another successful propaganda which lasted for centuries?

And if God really does exist, why are there countless catastrophes, disasters and wars happening throughout the globe?
Why are there sickness, death, divorce, suffering?
Does religion make sense when you're looking from this perspective?
Why do good people suffer, while the evil one prevail and live long?

It's really quite contradicting to the promises of God and the Scriptures, isn't it?
Proverbs 28 : 25 says, He who trust in the Lord will prosper. But many are suffering, many are dying, and there are many more who are in between.

Is it time for us to question God, and come to Him with all sorts of questions, demanding complete and reasonable explanations from Him? Many have done so, many have been blaming God, questioning Him when something is their lives started to go out of control.

I've seen many injustice in this world, or should I say the world around me.

A good friend of mine. Filial, hardworking, health-concious, diligent, selfless, and handsome of course. But out of nowhere, and without any satisfying explanations from any specialist, life took a slightly wrong turn, and he had kidney failure. And yeah, both kidneys. Life isn't fair, right?
"Why me?", is one of the first few thoughts that came into his mind. "It is not Fair!". We do realize that this fallen world is full of injustice, and yet we still get disappointed with God whenever adversity strikes.

My childhood pastor, Pastor Rueben, was a good man. A decent man. He brought me to Christ by praying the sinner's prayer. I was quite mischievous at that age and yet he did not complain a bit about me. And yeah, all of sudden, the Hepatitis disease that he had all the while became acute liver cancer. And at that time, all he had was at most 6 months to live. And of course, he is with the Lord now, leaving behind his wife and a son. But the point is, why him? Why a decent man who serves the Lord with all his heart, with all his soul?

Can anyone come out with a good explanation?

I'm pretty sure that as Christians, we all knew that life as a Christian are full of persecutions. Christians are killed, beheaded, stoned to death or tortured in some of the places around the world, even when human race are stepping into the thirteenth year of the 21st century.

But when we started to get involved in the big picture, playing the roles as Christian soldiers, can we still hold on to our faith? Can we still be "Still, and acknowledge that He is God", that He is in control no matter in what circumstances? Even when we're in the most adverse situation, we are ought to know that He will never put us in a situation where we can't handle. The temptations in your life are no different from what others experience. And God is faithful. He will not allow the temptation to be more than you can stand. ~1 Corinthians 10 : 13 .

Talking about faith and trust.
This is another interesting illustration from the book,
"Imagine yourself near the beautiful and dangerous Niagara Falls on the border between Canada and upstate of New York. Suppose a circus performer has strung a rope across the falls with the intention of pushing a wheelbarrow to the other side. If he losses his balance, he will surely drown or be crushed in the churning waters below. Just before stepping on the rope, the stunt man turns to you and says, " Do you think I can accomplish this feat?"
You reply that his reputation has preceded him and that you fully believe he has the ability to walk the tightrope. In the other words, you have faith that he will succeed.
But then he says, "If you really believe I can do it, how about getting in the wheelbarrow and crossing to the other side with me?" To accept that invitation would be an example of remarkable trust."

There's another example in Matthew 14, when Jesus walked on water. All of us have faith that our Lord can perform miraculous acts, for instance, walking on water. But how many of us, will have the trust in Him, and get of the boat like Peter did, and walk together with Jesus (Though he doubted the Lord and started to fear a bit, that's when he started sinking.)?

We are all human beings, and when adversity strikes, we start to tremble, and our faith will start to shatter. It depends, of course, someone people of great faith still stand still and wait for the deliverance of our Lord. Our Father in Heaven always give us the allowance of doubt, as long as we turn back to Him in due time. He even forgive us whenever we blamed Him for not being there for us whenever we needed Him.

There are so many examples in the bible, there are even more examples in the world out there when God seems to be millions of miles away, leaving His people on their own to suffer. But, are there any explanations for all of these? Mortals like us are trying to comprehend the act of our own Creator, the Almighty God, isn't that ridiculous?

I guess it's better for us to let God be God. All we can do it to hold on firm to our faith in Him, trust Him with all we have.

If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to deliver us from it, and he will deliver us from Your Majesty’s hand. But even if he does not, we want you to know, Your Majesty, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up. ~ Daniel 3 : 17 - 18

Fellow B.A.S.I.C, stay strong in Him... (:

Labels: Book, Christianity, thoughts

» You Reap What You Sow

Thursday, October 20, 2011

~ 11:47 AM ~

Another amazing story to share,

"Good morning,"said a woman as she walked up to the man sitting on ground.
The man slowly looked up.

This was a woman clearly accustomed to the finer things of life. Her coat was new.. She looked like she had never missed a meal in her life.

His first thought was that she wanted to make fun of him, like so many others had done before.. "Leave me alone," he growled....

To his amazement, the woman continued standing.

She was smiling -- her even white teeth displayed in dazzling rows. "Are you hungry?" she asked.

"No," he answered sarcastically. "I've just come from dining with the president. Now go away."

The woman's smile became even broader. Suddenly the man felt a gentle hand under his arm.

"What are you doing, lady?" the man asked angrily. "I said to leave me alone."

Just then a policeman came up. "Is there any problem, ma'am?" he asked..

"No problem here, officer," the woman answered. "I'm just trying to get this man to his feet. Will you help me?"

The officer scratched his head. "That's old Jack. He's been a fixture around here for a couple of years. What do you want with him?"

"See that cafeteria over there?" she asked. "I'm going to get him something to eat and get him out of the cold for awhile."

"Are you crazy, lady?" the homeless man resisted. "I don't want to go in there!" Then he felt strong hands grab his other arm and lift him up. "Let me go, officer. I didn't do anything."
" This is a good deal for you, Jack" the officer answered. "Don't blow it.."

Finally, and with some difficulty, the woman and the police officer got Jack into the cafeteria and sat him at a table in a remote corner. It was the middle of the morning, so most of the breakfast crowd had already left and the lunch bunch had not yet arrived...

The manager strode across the cafeteria and stood by his table. "What's going on here, officer?" he asked. "What is all this, is this man in trouble?"
"This lady brought this man in here to be fed," the policeman answered.

"Not in here!" the manager replied angrily. "Having a person like that here is bad for business.."

Old Jack smiled a toothless grin. "See, lady. I told you so. Now if you'll let me go. I didn't want to come here in the first place."

The woman turned to the cafeteria manager and smiled....... "Sir, are you familiar with Eddy and Associates, the banking firm down the street?"

"Of course I am," the manager answered impatiently. "They hold their weekly meetings in one of my banquet rooms."

"And do you make a godly amount of money providing food at these weekly meetings?"

"What business is that of yours?"

I, sir, am Penelope Eddy, president and CEO of the company."

"Oh."

The woman smiled again. "I thought that might make a difference." She glanced at the cop who was busy stifling a giggle. "Would you like to join us in a cup of coffee and a meal, officer?"

"No thanks, ma'am," the officer replied. "I'm on duty."

"Then, perhaps, a cup of coffee to go?"
"Yes, ma'am. That would be very nice."

The cafeteria manager turned on his heel, "I'll get your coffee for you right away, officer."

The officer watched him walk away. "You certainly put him in his place," he said.

"That was not my intent. Believe it or not, I have a reason for all this."

She sat down at the table across from her amazed dinner guest. She stared at him intently.. "Jack, do you remember me?"

Old Jack searched her face with his old, rheumy eyes. "I think so -- I mean you do look familiar "

"I'm a little older perhaps," she said. "Maybe I've even filled out more than in my younger days when you worked here, and I came through that very door, cold and hungry."

"Ma'am?" the officer said questioningly. He couldn't believe that such a magnificently turned out woman could ever have been hungry.

"I was just out of college," the woman began. "I had come to the city looking for a job, but I couldn't find anything. Finally I was down to my last few cents and had been kicked out of my apartment. I walked the streets for days. It was February and I was cold and nearly starving. I saw this place and walked in on the off chance that I could get something to eat."

Jack lit up with a smile. "Now I remember," he said.. "I was behind the serving counter. You came up and asked me if you could work for something to eat. I said that it was against company policy."

"I know," the woman continued. "Then you made me the biggest roast beef sandwich that I had ever seen, gave me a cup of coffee, and told me to go over to a corner table and enjoy it. I was afraid that you would get into trouble... Then, when I looked over and saw you put the price of my food in the cash register, I knew then that everything would be all right."

"So you started your own business?" Old Jack said.

"I got a job that very afternoon. I worked my way up. Eventually I started my own business that, with the help of God, prospered." She opened her purse and pulled out a business card.. "When you are finished here, I want you to pay a visit to a Mr. Lyons...He's the personnel director of my company. I'll go talk to him now and I'm certain he'll find something for you to do around the office." She smiled. "I think he might even find the funds to give you a little advance so that you can buy some clothes and get a place to live until you get on your feet... If you ever need anything, my door is always opened to you."

There were tears in the old man's eyes. "How can I ever thank you?" he said.
"Don't thank me," the woman answered. "To God goes the glory. He led me to you."

Outside the cafeteria, the officer and the woman paused at the entrance before going their separate ways....

"Thank you for All your help, officer," she said.

"On the contrary, Ms. Eddy," he answered. "Thank you. I saw a miracle today, something that I will never forget. And..And thank you for the coffee."

God is going to shift things around for you today and let things work in your favor.

God closes doors no man can open & God opens doors no man can close..

Have a blessed day and remember to be a blessing...

Labels: Christianity

» Stepping Down

Thursday, August 25, 2011

~ 2:07 PM ~

I was quite surprised when my dad called me the other day, asking me why aren't I updating my blog, and it's been weeks since the last post. And so, I decided to actually spent this night writing about my life for the past few weeks.... Okay, here goes....

MID-SEM

Basically after the 30 hours Famine Camp, I was quite caught up with studies busy revising for the past mid-sem. It was really boring and exhausting, cramming so many things in such short period of time... I was really satisfied and grateful for everything God had blessed me with despite the last minute effort... 人人常说，平时不烧香，临时抱佛脚。I guess I'm one of those...

I remembered how I spend my last Friday rotting in my apartment after my last physics paper for mid-sem... Everyone went out, some to Alamanda, some 1 Utama etc... But due to financial crisis lately, I decided to spend the whole day, doing nothing... What I can say about my studies, is that I'm still working on it, and hopefully it'll turn out well soon...

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AS / IELTS

There's something happened right before mid-sem exams, on the 11th of August ... It's the results of AS as well as IELTS... And yeah, I've got straight A's for AS.... Not to say but then I'm already expecting this.... I'm never less grateful for this awesome results He had blessed me with. Anyway, to my blog followers, I'm retaking my math. For some unknown reason, I did relatively poor for my math paper... Just hope that everything will go fine for this retake paper.

Talking about IELTS, I was quite satisfied with what I get, a Band 7.5. Though I expect a little more of myself, I know where I stand. My English is not that good after all...

But I wanna praise God for both of these, and give thanks to Him for what ever results I've got. Can really say that it's double blessing to me...

After getting our AS results

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GRACE HOME CHARITY OUTREACH

Right after the busy week of past years and non-stop of mugging, when I think I finally can have some rest, I actually don't... Hmm.... Thanks to Benjamin's initiative, KTT Christian Fellowship organized a charity outreach to Grace Home in Port Klang. It was established like 30 years ago, to take in women who are in desperate need of shelter, medical care etc...

This is run by Grace Community Services, based on the bible verse

James 1: 27

Religion that is pure and undefiled before God, the Father is this:

To visit orphans and widows in their affliction, and to keep oneself

unstained from the world.

We didn't really get to do much on that day, just a short praise and worship session. Amazing Grace, Light of The World, Jesus Paid It All.... Prepared Nasi Lemak lunch for them, simple but nice... We went around the home and clean it as much as we could. I guess we spent quite a lot of time talking to the women over there.

I seriously find my dialects useful, though I couldn't understand everything they shared with me. I was very very moved by the faith they possess in Jesus Christ, and thats the only motivation that keeps them going on for the past years, not their children, not any other worldly possession. In spite of the challenges they faced in their lives, I am very amazed by their belief that God will never leave them nor forsake them.

Singing along a cappella with them, the song 《真正好》 and 《牵我的手》, suddenly meant a lot to me. Unfortunately I just had the time to talk to three of the women over there. I can really feel how much they have been through this journey of life, experiencing ups n downs, moments of joy and grief. Some are have diseases, both physically and mentally, some are dumped by their own children. But none of these ever stop them from giving thanks to the Lord. Their sincere voices, their claps as well as their heart of worshiping the Lord, really gave me a wake-up call. Despite being the Praise and Worship Coordinator for almost a year, I never really emphasize on elements like these.

CF members (:

Count your blessings, name them one by one. I really felt that I'm so blessed compared to people who are struggling to survive every single day of their lives. At the same time, never forget to give as "It is more blessed to give than to receive ~ Acts 20 : 35"

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VICTOR & ADELINE

It's been great knowing both of you... Thanks for being so wonderful throughout the past one year, going to Baptist Church every Sunday with me.....

My mortal - Stephen (:

Adeline

Victor...

All the best in your future endeavors... Enjoy Davangere (:

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APPRECIATION DINNER & STEPPING DOWN

Last sunday was officially our last gathering and meeting for the 4th generation of committees for Christian Fellowship. It's been a year ever since we were nominated, and then elected to lead God's people here in KTT. All those faces who were once strangers to me are so dear to me now. Honestly, life is not easy for us this year. Striving for the best, not only for CF, but also to perform well academically.

Everyone of you have been an inspiration and motivation, to keep me going all the way until today. But I very sure that our journey doesn't end here. I'm really grateful for being blessed with such awesome people, to do God's work together, to grow in Him. Sometimes, I don't talk much during committee meeting, I'm really sorry for not being participative. But I would like to tell all of you that you've changed me a lot, for the better.

Benjamin Oh

Corine

Yong Kee

Yong Kuang

Jude

Rachel

Esther

Boy, Geraldine

Jing

I-vonne

I really treasure every single moment we spent together. The night at Sepang Gold Coast was indeed an unforgettable one. I seriously don't know what else to say, but running this 1-year race with y'all is really life-changing and memorable.

Yesterday was the last day being in the committee, was quite happy that new generation are raised up to take the lead, but at the same time very reluctant to do so... Mixed feelings... hmph... Anyway, my successor is Joshua Wong Shii a.k.a. Spoonguy... God have chose you for a reason, and it's up to you to discover it.... I'm sure that you'll do a great job in leading the Christians here in praise and worshiping God (:

The Spoonguy ( P&W Coordinator )

And this is the new list of committees....
The 5th Generation

President : Ginsky Daniel Chan
Vice President 1 : Cyndl Matheus
Vice President 2 : Aldrin Chong
Secretary : Hilda
Treasurer : Lee Sue Hong
Praise and Worship Coordinator : Joshua Wong
Prayer Group Coordinator 1 : Jonathan Chieng
Prayer Group Coordinator 2 : Chuan Jin
Event Coordinator : Allan Jonis
Music Coordinator : Eunice Lim
Sports Coordinator : Cornelius
Media and Publicity Coordinator : Jeffrey

I believe that God raise up this chosen generation for a greater purpose. And I have faith that you all will do a better job than us, in leading CF, in learning and growing up to be more Christ-like.

But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.
1 Peter 2 : 9

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Labels: CF, Christianity, event, school

» Identity

Saturday, July 16, 2011

~ 11:58 PM ~

I was quite tired for the past few days, and so I decided to delay this blogpost... It was about the last CF, when Yong Kee and Boy shared about their testimonies, and the juniors were divided into groups to serve in CF.

There was also short presentation and sharing by Bro. David Story. He is an american musician and songwriter. His guitar skills are way too awesome... >.<

That night, he shared about "Identity", and what he shared really inspired me.

"Whats's your identity?"

Is it being a scholar, who only excel in studies?

Or is it measured by the possession you have?

Is it the hopes that you live for?

If it's any of these, then I guess you are just working and chasing blindly for something that's so unrealistic, so temporary. All of these can just be taken away within seconds...And yet, it's still very easy for us to find our own identity in things that we can do and achieved.

But if you find your identity and place all your hope in Him, it will definitely be everlasting. God is always that promising (:

Never ever find your identity through things you dislike the most, like your shortcomings, sins you've committed, bad habits... Cause as long as you continue to seek your identity in Him, He will make you whole, and He will cleanse you off your past....

Stop living in a world of false hope, which will vanish anytime, even without us realising it....

Our true identities are being the followers of Christ. We are who we are because of Him, and in Him we are made whole.

For in Christ lives all the fullness of God in a human body.

So you also are complete through your union with Christ,

who is the head over every ruler and authority.

~Colossians 2 : 9-10~

P/S: I shared during campus revolution yesterday (:

Labels: CF, Christianity

» 迷失

Thursday, June 23, 2011

~ 9:49 AM ~

渴望回到学校，但回到了这儿，
却不懂为何那么的想回来。

这学期应该不会很轻松，
昨日，生物老师，不懂干嘛心血来潮，
提议了什么Student-centred的教学方式。
数学老师，也丢给了我们
一大堆的功课，十分的“闲”。

偶尔，真的感觉到十分的空虚，
除了读书，还是读书，
感觉上好像没什么意义的。
没办法啦，学生嘛，任务就只有读书。
很多人，渴望有书读，
我们这些，得到了奖学金，还在那儿
哭爹喊娘的。。。真不懂我们在想什么。

昨夜，CF之前，Ivonne 搞了Pray & Fast
的这个东东。。。
短短的半小时，却让我回想了我生命中
不同的画面，
不知为何，我就是觉得，
自己好像很多方面都比不上人家，
虽然，别人时常都羡慕，
我在课业上的成就。
然而，我却不把这当成是什么丰功伟绩的。
望远一点，聪明的人多的很，
想深一点，自己真的是如此的渺小。

学校里，说到读书，哪个不知JianMeng是排第一的？
说到领导能力，有多少个 MPPs 要兼顾学业与MPP的任务？
人品优秀的，随便找，都一定能找到。

不是不知足，但我真的感觉到
外来的压力，
一点一滴，慢慢的累积，
心里真的不好受。

那就是为何，人人都说我，
一整天都在那儿，愁眉苦脸。
有时候真的找不到原因去笑，
微笑，狂笑，你们都去了哪儿？

这地方，这学院，让我学习了不少东西。
人也比较容易知足，对生活上的要求不多了，
只要珍惜当下，珍惜与家人的时间，孝敬父母；
珍惜与朋友的时间，知己难寻，
我们也不知，谁会先离谁而去。。。

这不是悲观，也不是杞人忧天；
这是世事，也是残酷的事实。。。

没有东西是理所当然的，
有了生命，那就是福气，
生命中其他的，比如
亲情，友情，关怀。。。
也就是大福了。
世上，很多人都没有了双亲，
终日为三餐而烦恼；
有的又百病缠身；
有的有困在战争中。

反问以下自己，我们都面对着这些吗？
仔细想一下，自己的要求是否多了一些？

戒食了几天，感觉的确不好受，
有时还会头晕晕的。
非洲那里，挨饿几个星期的小孩，多得很。
然而，我们生在福中不知福；
吃东西东挑西选，有时还吃不完，把食物扔掉。

我只想说的是，
”一个人的快乐，不是因为他拥有的多，而是因为他计较的少。“

无时无刻，我都会为未来而烦恼，
担心未来到底会是怎样的；
有时还会，回头望一望过去，
后悔曾经做过的错事。

这新的学期，时间是绝对不足够的，
下个星期，学弟学妹们就会前来报到，
他们一定会吓到得，
“那么简陋的学院”
“那么咖纳塞的地方”
议论纷纷。。。

希望你们在这里会成长，
会惜福，会恍然大悟，原来家里是多么的好。
会感恩。。。

我本身，也会搞好自己，
不会心动而不行动的。。。
四个月，说长不长，说短不短。。。
A2, 我来了！
未来，我也来了！

所以，不要为明天忧虑，因为明天自有明天的忧虑；一天的难处一天当就够了。
～马太福音 6 ：34～

P/S: 兄弟，你也加油吧，年尾再聚了（：

Labels: Christianity, complication, philosophy

» Hosanna...

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

~ 11:17 AM ~

[Verse 1]

I see the King of glory

Coming on the clouds with fire

The whole earth shakes, the whole earth shakes

I see His love and mercy

Washing over all our sin

The people sing, the people sing

[Chorus]

Hosanna, hosanna

Hosanna in the highest (x2)

[Verse 2]

I see a generation

Rising up to take the place

With selfless faith, with selfless faith

I see a near revival

Stirring as we pray and seek

We're on our knees, we're on our knees

[Chorus]

[Bridge]

Heal my heart and make it clean

Open up my eyes to the things unseen

Show me how to love like You have loved me

Break my heart for what breaks Yours

Everything I am for Your Kingdom's cause

As I walk from earth into eternity

I first heard this song during Sunday Worship,

but it has been stuck in my head since then...

“What does the word hosanna really mean?

Hosanna is a prayer that can only be said to Jehovah.

Which simply means " Save us, please! "

And since we, Christian are saved by the blood of Jesus,

its our turn to show how grateful we are,

to thank Him, by lifting up our hands...saying

"Hosanna, Hosanna in the Highest"

Labels: Christianity

» Psalm 55:22

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

~ 9:05 AM ~

Psalm 55:22 - you really need to read this. Friends are God's way of taking care of us.'

This was written by a Metro Denver Hospice Physician:

I was driving home from a meeting this evening about 5, stuck in traffic on Colorado Blvd., and the car started to choke and splutter and die - I barely managed to coast into a gas station, glad only that I would not be blocking traffic and would have a somewhat warm spot to wait for the tow truck. The engine wouldn't even turn over. Before I could make the call, I saw a woman walking out of the quickie mart building, and it looked like she slipped on some ice and fell into a gas pump, so I got out to see if she was okay.

When I got there, it looked more like she had been overcome by sobs than that she had fallen; she was a young woman who looked really haggard with dark circles under her eyes. She dropped something as I helped her up, and I picked it up to give it to her. It was a nickel.

At that moment, everything came into focus for me: the crying woman, the ancient Suburban crammed full of stuff with 3 kids in the back (1 in a car seat), and the gas pump reading $4.95.

I asked her if she was okay and if she needed help, and she just kept saying 'I don't want my kids to see me crying,' so we stood on the other side of the pump from her car. She said she was driving to California and that things were very hard for her right now. So I asked, 'And you were praying?' That made her back away from me a little, but I assured her I was not a crazy person and said, "He heard you, and He sent me."

I took out my card and swiped it through the card reader on the pump so she could fill up her car completely, and while it was fueling, walked to the next door McDonald's and bought 2 big bags of food, some gift certificates for more, and a big cup of coffee. She gave the food to the kids in the car, who attacked it like wolves, and we stood by the pump eating fries and talking a little.

She told me her name, and that she lived in Kansas City . Her boyfriend left 2 months ago and she had not been able to make ends meet.. She knew she wouldn't have money to pay rent, and finally, in desperation, had called her parents, with whom she had not spoken in about 5 years. They lived in California and they said that she could come to live with them and try to get on her feet out there.

So she packed up everything she owned in the car. She told the kids they were going to California for Christmas, but not that they were going to live there.
I gave her my gloves, a little hug and said a quick prayer with her for safety on the road.. As I was walking over to my car, she said, "So, are you like an angel or something?"

This definitely made me cry. I said, "Sweetie, at this time of year angels are really busy, so sometimes God uses regular people."

It was so incredible to be a part of someone else's miracle. And of course, you guessed it, when I got in my car, it started right away and got me home with no problem. I'll put it in the shop tomorrow to check, but I suspect the mechanic won't find anything wrong.

Sometimes the angels fly close enough to you that you can hear the flutter of their wings....

Psalms 55:22 'Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and He shall sustain thee. He shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.'

Labels: Christianity, philosophy

» Weariness...

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

~ 12:30 PM ~

Time is fast, I just finished my Physics paper 2 three days ago... And I've been tired, and worried about things that's gonna happen... It's been awhile since I last had these feelings...

Fortunately, I know who to rely on during moment like this... And He'll never fail to put that smile back on my face, as promised...

Fear not, I am with you, I will strengthen you, I will help you and uphold you.

Isaiah 41 : 10

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This morning, Jude shared about Anxiety, Worries ... And I'm very sure it's no coincidence that it fitted perfectly with my current situation... Life is never a bed of roses, and being a Christian doesn't make your lives easier... He never promised a comfortable life, but a life filled with persecution, condemnation, sufferings, as no servant is greater than his master, and if Jesus was persecuted 2000 years ago, so will we...

Problems and difficulties are never ending, but what's the point of worrying about the future... Can anyone of us add an hour to our lives by just worrying??? I seriously doubt that anyone could even add a second to their lives by worrying... I guess we're just "people of little faith", that doubted God's ability and faithfulness towards us... Many of us rather rely on our own strength, own wisdom, own power to run the race of Life.... and guess what, these people are gonna end up nowhere and start to worry...

Our earthly parents have provided us with everything we ever needed, all the way from basic necessities like Love, Care to things like iPhone 4G, and some lucky kid even got a Toyota as a birthday present... If our earthly parents loved us and provided us with all these, what more can our heavenly Daddy, that we cry out to everytime, provide us with???

When I was young, getting "Stars" from teachers in school was such an achievement... But as time passes by, "Stars" can no longer fulfill my worldly desire... It was then replaced by Sweets, (I guess every kids love them)... But as this desire within me grows with time, I realized that even a JPA scholarship for a 6 years Medicine course couldn't make me any happier....

Shouldn't we cast all our worries onto Him, and trust in Him that He'll take care of them?? Shouldn't we be faithful enough to trust that He'll always provide us with the best?? I guess it's pretty obvious that all of us should do so, right??

It's time for us to reflect upon ourselves... Do you really think you're SOMEBODY, who are worthy of everything you desire ??? Or are you a worthless speck of matter in the this universe, but still precious in God's eyes?? I always had this mindset that I'm better, better than any other JPA scholars, and of course deserve better treatment... But I know it's never right to doubt His plan for me...

"He who is of a proud heart stirs up strife, But he who trusts in the Lord will be prospered. He who trusts in his own heart is a fool, But whoever walks wisely will be delivered"

Proverbs 28 : 25 - 26

"Heavenly Father, I trust in you, and I'll commit myself, everything I am, and all my plans, whole-heartedly into your hands... I pray that You'll strengthen me, and draw me closer to you... So that I may grow to be like You..."

When we were young, we believe that God is almighty, and nothing is impossible in Him...and we literally meant what we talked about and sang in Sunday School...
But as we grow older, this childlike faith faded over time...

Can we be like these kids??? Always happy and grateful with the sweets our Heavenly Daddy provided us with...

If we are faithless, he remains faithful...

2 Timothy 2 : 13

See, God is always that comforting ... =)

Labels: Christianity, complication, philosophy

» Easter Sunday

Monday, April 25, 2011

~ 6:57 PM ~

Yesterday was indeed special, it was because Jesus died and rose again approximately 2000 years ago... We went for Easter Sunday Service at First Baptist Church at Petaling Jaya... and it took us around an hour to reach there from Nilai... I slept in the bus the whole time =)

The praise & worship was awesome, but our choir was even better =P ... We presented 2 songs, "Oh Happy Day" and "Nothing But The Blood Of Jesus" ... The speaker was talking about contrast between Fear and Boldness, highlighted in the book of Mark 15 : 43 - 16 : 8 ... Will you risk you reputation, personal belongings, and even your life, for Jesus, like John of Arimathea? Or will you rather be like the women who fear to proclaim the truth?

FEAR inhibits FAITH, both of these cannot coexist... There's always a price to pay, something to give up, if we chose to follow Jesus... Why do we felt embarrassed proclaiming our christian faith? Do opinions and perception of others really matter that much? We can never follow Him in a distance, we need to be bold and courageous for Him, like Paul, who can go the distance for Christ...

Once again, I would like all of us to ponder upon our own faith as Christ died and resurrected 2000 years ago, for us... He bore all the pain and humiliation, for us, unclean unworthy sinners... How do we overcome our own fear, fear to proclaim His victory?? It can only be done, if and only if we fear the Lord who is in control of everything, and anything.

Does His death sharpen and strengthen your faith in Him??

Will you Risk @ Run ???

He said to them, “Why are you so afraid? Have you still no faith?”

Mark 4 : 40

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It was indeed a long day, because I've to finish up something real important... Something to really bring the Easter's atmosphere to this very college... Though it's a bit late, but better late than never =) We have been spending hours, working diligently day and night, to finish our little gift, for everyone in our college...

It all begin with packets of flour, and 300 balloons... And thanks to everyone, who came and supported our effort, and make it possible and successful one...

It was very tedious and boring, especially when there were only few of us doing it... But, thank God for giving me the momentum to carry one, till we finish the very last one, last night 10.14 pm..... Hahahaha.... Finally it's over.....

Special thanks to Jeremy Wee, and Kenneth for coming nearly everyday to help, I really do appreciate your hard work...

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Everything is nearly over, but Advanced Subsidiary is only 2 weeks from now... Time to work really hard ..."Watch and pray that you may not enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak."

Labels: CF, Christianity, event, philosophy

» Thank You for Your Love

Friday, April 22, 2011

~ 10:50 AM ~

It's Good Friday today, I never know why is it called so... Just that, I know that He, Jesus Christ was crucified and died for us on the cross... to give us eternal salvation... There are millions of thoughts in my mind, grateful and feel blessed that He never gave up on me ever since I deviated from Him years ago...

Recently, one of my friends went for a 42km Marathon, and he told me that it wasn't easy... And yes, I do believe in Him, running in the darkness alone, I can't imagine the path of life like that, Dark.... Lonely.... Helpless.... This kind of life, will just keep on reminding me of giving up...

But, instead of leaving us in the darkness, He sent His only son, all out of Love, to finish the Marathon of pain, sufferings, humiliation and crucifixion, to give us life, eternal life... As He said, I came that you may have life, and have it abundantly. I'm grateful for Love, and Grace that He gave unconditionally, so incomprehensible, yet so real... and nothing ever feel so real, so promising, and comforting...

I was changed, one year ago, because I finally discovered His amazing love... and that transformed me inside out, for the better... and since then, I was never myself, the old me again... I've rededicated my life to Him... Some of my friends, never expect this drastic change in me, but I'll never look back to savor a little bit longer in my sinful past...

Though I do know that, not everyone I know, like me for who I am, but I'm seriously working on it... I seriously want to thank all my mentors, Kelvin, Jeremy, Andrea, Chris, and now, Edwin... Thank you for not giving up on me...

Thank you, Jesus for not giving up on me, and gave me chances after chances... I'll do my best in everything to bring glory and honor unto Your name...

There's no greater Love than His,

that He lay down His life for His friends.

John 15 : 13

Labels: Christianity, philosophy

» PERCEPTION

Monday, March 14, 2011

~ 11:26 PM ~

This is one very interesting story to share =D

In Washington DC , at a Metro Station, on a cold January morning in 2007, this man with a violin played six Bach pieces for about 45 minutes. During that time, 1,067 people went through the station, most of them on their way to work. After about 3 minutes, a middle-aged man noticed that there was a musician playing. He slowed his pace and stopped for a few seconds, and then he hurried on to meet his schedule.

About 4 minutes later:

The violinist received his first dollar. A woman threw money in the hat and, without stopping, continued to walk.

At 6 minutes:

A young man leaned against the wall to listen to him, then looked at his watch and started to walk again.

At 10 minutes:
A 3-year old boy stopped, but his mother tugged him along hurriedly. The kid stopped to look at the violinist again, but the mother pushed hard and the child continued to walk, turning his head the whole time. This action was repeated by several other children, but every parent - without exception - forced their children to move on quickly.

At 45 minutes:

The musician played continuously. Only 6 people stopped and listened for a short while. About 20 gave money but continued to walk at their normal pace. The man collected a total of $32.17, excluding $20 from the only person who recognized him.

After 1 hour:

He finished playing and silence took over. No one noticed and no one applauded. There was no recognition at all.

No one knew this, but the violinist was Joshua Bell, one of the greatest musicians in the world. He played one of the most intricate pieces ever written, with a violin Gibson Stradivarius worth $3.5 million dollars. Two days before, Joshua Bell sold-out a theater in Boston where the seats averaged $100 each to sit and listen to him play the same music.

This is a true story. Joshua Bell, playing incognito in the D.C. Metro Station, was organized by the Washington Post as part of a social experiment about perception, taste and people's priorities.

This experiment raised several questions:

*In a common-place environment, at an inappropriate hour, do we perceive beauty?
*If so, do we stop to appreciate it?
*Do we recognize talent in an unexpected context?

One possible conclusion reached from this experiment could be this:

If we do not have a moment to stop and listen to one of the best musicians in the world, playing some of the finest music ever written, with one of the most beautiful instruments ever made . . .

How many other things are we missing as we rush through life? When we are rushing through our lives, are we missing out our one and only personal savior, Jesus? Do we even recognize Him, when He came into our lives? Are you the one and only person, who recognizes, stops and follows Him?

Labels: Christianity, philosophy

» Are you ready?

Sunday, February 27, 2011

~ 7:18 PM ~

Talking about Boy-Girl Relationship, people at our age are quite interested to know more about it... including me... But, nowadays, from what I can see, 2 people come together, and become couple, just for the sake of being together, enjoying the companionship, without considering about the commitment and responsibilities of being together with someone... Bro Chris came last Wednesday, and talk something about BGR during our Christian Fellowship...And it really hit me...

What is the purpose and reason of two people getting hooked up? Is it merely just because of the fun and enjoyment of having a companion, someone who text you from time to time, someone who will chat with you throughout the night?? I don't know but sometimes, teenagers like us, often undergoes some sort of chemical or hormonal disorder, that is when we tends to think that we are in LOVE with the special he or she...And we ended up in a broken relationship...

What's the point of going for the hunt, seeking for your own perfect match??? Your 10/10 perfect boy@girlfriend?? Have you ever wonder, when that person suddenly appear in your lives, will you be ready to get involve?? Will he or she also think that you are the perfect match??? What if the answers are "NO"?? Instead of waiting for the perfect one to appear, you might as well get yourself ready, ready for the best, make yourself the 100% perfect guy@girl that every other person dreamt of...

What is LOVE?? Many have misused this word to express their feeling of infatuation, the mere desire to be with that person...But what LOVE really shows, is a kind of selfless sacrifice, a life-long dedication to be with your love one... Can most of us do that?? Are we ready to get involve in this kind of Holy Covenant?? Or is it okay to get involve in several relationships, not the serious kind, but just for the sake of having fun??

If we all really put God in the center of everything, including our relationships, there are many things to consider, many rules to follow, when the Bible is our Authority for us to run our lives... Let's us live our lives according to what the Bible said, be a Godly person, submit to Him, and He will surely complete the Missing piece of your Jigsaw puzzle.....

When you are ready, the right person will appear in the right place, the right time, for the right reason ....A vow is a vow, its a serious promise, a Holy Covenant that shouldn't be broken... Here goes the Wedding vows,

I _____, take you ______, to be my wedded wife/husband. To have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness or in health, to love and to cherish 'till death do us part. And hereto I pledge you my faithfulness.

For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh.

~Matthew 19 : 5~

Labels: CF, Christianity, philosophy

» What if.....

Monday, February 21, 2011

~ 9:32 PM ~

Just this morning, I realise something... Something very sudden, something very frightening, something you never even thought about... What if, someone you love, someone you cherish so much, someone you can't afford to lose, suddenly bids an eternal farewell to you... This thought seriously never came into my mind, not until this morning, when I woke up due to an unusual weird dream, where I lost somebody so important to me... He just managed to say goodbye, through a phone call, before he took his last breath... I was crying in that dream, crying and seeking for something, something that can soothe me, calm me... What if, you received a phone call, telling you that, your dad, or your mum suddenly just leave this world... I never knew what would happen to me, I guess I'll just be like a person who lost all the reasons the live in this world...

Many of my friends lost their parents, their friends, their love ones... and I dunno how they really felt, but things had already happen, there's nothing you can do to bring them back, there's no point crying over what had just happened... All of them, no most, but all of them, have to stand up, forget about grieving, crying, all those tears and pain, and move forward... Whenever you asked them how you felt about it, a typical answer would be, " Like this lo, what can I do".... Although I myself witness so many deaths, so many people leaving this world, I'm still not prepared to accept the news about the deaths of my love ones....

Sigh, just got a news that my friend, Firelynx, was still admitted in the hospital... And I'm here, knowing nothing about what's happening over there... Worries consumed me, awful thoughts filled my brain... I really don't know what'll happen next... The world isn't fair...

How will our life be, without them... Miserable?? Meaningless?? It's not easy to admit especially if they are our parents, our siblings, but all of these are only worldly possession, which are so, so, so temporary... It'll be gone just like that... It's not easy to give up all of these to Him, He who manipulates everything in His hand... What will you answer if God ask you, "Can I have your daddy in heaven with me now ?" I really don't know... I seriously don't know...

Have you ever thought about, what if tomorrow you can no longer wake up, you can no longer breathe, and open your eyes... Where will you be when that time comes... Are you lost ? Or are you certain of where you're heading ?? Some of us are not worry about this... as we know who we are, because of Him... But, how about our love ones?? Do they have salvation like you do??? Jesus Christ, gave up Himself for us, so that He who knew no sin, will have to die for we sinners on the cross ; and by that we will receive salvation and live forever more...

I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

~Galatians 2:20

Now, will you reach for Him, if He reach for you???

Labels: Christianity, complication, philosophy

» Does God Exist ????

Sunday, January 23, 2011

~ 9:02 PM ~

This is another story to share =) , not by me .....
Here goes....

Does God actually exist ...

One day, a man went to a barbershop to have
his hair cut and his beard trimmed.

As the barber began to work, they began to have a good
conversation. They talked about so many things and various
subjects. When they eventually touched on the subject of God,
the barber said: "I don't believe that God exists."

"Why do you say that?" asked the customer.
"Well, you just have to go out in the street to realize
that God doesn't exist.
Tell me, if God exists, would there be so many sick people?
Would there be abandoned children?

If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain.
I can't imagine a loving God who would allow all of these things."
The customer thought for a moment,
but didn't respond because he didn't want to start an argument.
The barber finished his job and the customer left the shop.

Just after he left the barbershop, he saw a man in the street
with long, stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard.
He looked dirty and unkempt. The customer turned back
and entered the barber shop again and he said to the barber:
"You know what? Barbers do not exist."
"How can you say that?" asked the surprised barber.
"I am here, and I am a barber. And I just worked on you!"
"No!" the customer exclaimed. "Barbers don't exist because
if they did, there would be no people with dirty long hair and
untrimmed beards, like that man outside."

"Ah, but barbers DO exist! That's what happens
when people do not come to me."
"Exactly!" affirmed the customer.
"That's the point! God, too, DOES exist!
That's what happens when people do not go to
Him and don't look to Him for help.
That's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world."

BE BLESSED & BE A BLESSING TO OTHERS !!!!!
Because we are all fighting some kind of battle each day.

Labels: Christianity

» It's time to do something about it

Thursday, January 6, 2011

~ 9:32 PM ~

Something has been bothering me for quite some time, something that I can't talk to anyone about.... That's why sometime I choose to keep quiet, I prefer to be alone, doing nothing, thinking about nothing.... I guess this weird feeling occur because of a person.... It's kind of stupid, argh..... I've been wasting my time thinking about this person. In fact, I don't really know what I'm doing..... It never happen to me, felling for someone whom I know I shouldn't, I've promised Edwin not to get involved in any unnecessary relationship, not until I finish my A-level or my freaking Medicine degree..... Crap, I'm not Edwin, come on, I don't even think I can last for this year...... STUPID.......IDIOT........ Just leave this crap aside >.<

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Pastor Dave came to our CF last night, and talked to us about setting New Year Resolution for ourselves... I myself never take up any new year resolution for the past 18 years, ever since I was born.....I dunno why but his encouragement and motivation seems to persuade and move me to take up a FEW new year resolution in this very year 2011.......

~ First, to be closer to GOD, to put Him first in everything...... I've been neglecting Him for so long and yet He never leave me nor forsake me
~ To STUDY real hard, or at least harder than before and score four A* in the upcoming AS as well as A2, if possible get "Top In The World" for Math =)
~ To know every one in KTT before I graduate from here, to at least know their name and spoke to them
~ To seriously get rid of addiction, which has been stuck to me for two long years.....
~ To be able to treasure every moment I have with my FAMILY..... Dad and Mum are getting older >.< and I will be leaving Malaysia next year.... I can't imagine what will it be like......
~To be able to interact and communicate POLITELY ( not in a rude or mean manner ) with people around me, so that they won't think that I'm so MEAN..........
~ Treasure my friends around me, 1.5 years in KTT is way too short for us to even waste one second.....
~ Serve in Church, now I'm able to serve in CF, and I MUST serve in Nilai Baptist or Patani Baptist.....
~ To come down to CamRev every single morning..... I made a Declaration last year, saying that I'll not miss CamRev for even 1 Day..... I must fulfill it .......
~ To think thoroughly before acting, I don't want to repeat my STUPID mistake last year, I've learnt my lesson, and I've paid a high price.......>.<
~ To slim down 10kilo....since I slimmed 20kilos in 2010, by God's grace =)
~ To show love to people around me, to be THICK-SKINNED..... to approach people I dunno and spread God's love .......
~ Finally, to be a more Christ-like person, to be able to understand HUMILITY, HUMANITY and OBEDIENCE.....

That's all for my new year resolution, I don't know whether can I achieved all of them in year 2011.....But I know who should I cling to, and seek in times of need.....This mere Declaration of New year resolution won't make it a reality, I'll have to bring all of these before my almighty Father.....For I know in Him, I can find confidence and success..... He'll lead me away from darkness into the truth and light, He'll guide me away from sin and temptation......

Every year will be the Greatest year of your life until then, because you will never know what will happen in the following year.....It's my choice to make it the best or the worst...... 2010 is the turning point of my life, God had seek and saved the lost.....He never lose hope in me, never lose faith in me........ And I know that my life will be an Amazing life when I put Him in the picture.........

I don't know what 2011 holds, but I know Who holds 2011, and I'm sure I will choose to hold on to Him who hold this very 2011......I can achieve anything not because I'm anyone or anything, it's solely because He is the Alpha and Omega, He is Everything.........

You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self,

which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds;

and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.

Ephesian 4 : 22 - 24

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Today is my best friend's birthday..........I nearly forget it...... Very sorry.....Yikuan @ Firelynx.......Anyway, thanks for being my friend for all these years.......God bless you in the new year, all the best in your future endeavour........ =)

Labels: CF, Christianity, complication, friends, philosophy

» Humility, Humanity, Obedience

Saturday, December 25, 2010

~ 7:07 PM ~

Yeah, I am baptised today in my home church - Patani Baptist Church, by Pastor Clement Chong. It was so fast, after the "Amen", all I know was, "Splash", and total wetness... And I was BAPTISED... Haha... Today's Christmas Celebration was simply, more like a conventional way of celebrating the birth of Jesus Christ... I really never expect a Baptism Ceremony to be that short...Oh yeah, my testimony went well, or should I say better than expected... It's like God working inside out in me.... =)

There was some presentation by Bible School's Kids... and LOL, they are way too cute and adorable >.< seriously, it made me recall the moments when I was in their shoe, doing those moves... and this was at least 10 years ago...And there were Chinese and English Choir by our own church members, though I think my college choir is far better =P ... Anyway, who am I to criticize or condemn, right? I just love the sermon @ message by Rev. Clement Chong... It was about the true meaning of Christmas...

"During your birthday, you had a party and invited all your friends to it... They came and celebrated it, they had fun, they talked about anything or everything, but forget about YOU, who was supposed to be the most important character of the day... What will you feel???" This is a rhetorical question asked by Rev Chong, today... And this made me reflect, how I celebrate this important day 25 December, ever since I known what it is meant for... It is not merely about gifts, presents, fun, turkey, carolling, Santa etc... Many have already forgotten the true purpose of celebrating this day, the day when Jesus Christ the Messiah is born....

Philippians 2

Imitating Christ’s Humility

"Therefore if you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any common sharing in the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and of one mind. Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others. In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus."

This chapter reminds us of the ways of being a real Christian, ways to be more and more Christ-like, not deviated to the wrong path of life... It shows us that Jesus die a humiliated way, which no human beings ever wanted.... He is crucified on the cross =( .. all because of us.... LOL, i don't wanna drag this post anymore =) ..... It's just that I really really experienced true Christmas' spirit this year .....

Watch this video, it means a lot, and it was sang by the KTT Christmas Choir 2010 as well.....

Merry Christmas All =)

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