Life That Has Been Changed By Him

» 家和万事兴

Sunday, August 28, 2011

~ 9:13 AM ~

其实，回到了家乡的感觉真的是十分的不一样。虽然只是个小小的一个镇子，可是却有着许许多多难忘的童年回忆。自幼就有这想要离开，想要向外发展的愿望；现在实现了，但人类就是那么的矛盾。无时无刻都会挂念着这儿，有着“独在异乡为异客，每逢佳节倍思亲”的感觉。昨晚，躺在家里的床上时，不知不觉入眠了。原来在家里是那么的舒服..... 以前真的是不懂得惜福，也不懂得珍惜。真的很感谢上帝，赐予我一个那么温暖的家。 (:

仔细地看一看爸妈、阿嬷，他们的确老了。不懂为何心中顿时觉得生命是短暂的，令人无法预料下一刻所会发生的事情。说真的，他们看到我回来，心中是十分的开心。天下父母心都是一样的，有哪一个父母会不疼爱自己的孩子呢？相反的，世上有多少孩子是会感谢父母的养育之恩？说到尽孝，老实说自己是真的没做好身为孩子的本分。我不只是在这里忏悔，当然也想为他们做至少一点点东西。记得上个星期探望了 Grace Home，真的替那一些老婆婆感到心酸。然而，她们有些还很荣幸地说，“我孩子很厉害读书的，一个还当了博士，另一个是律师。”

很多时候，父母养我们、教育我们、照顾我们、爱我们，都没要求什么回报。但他们也是人，不是铁打的，跟我们一样有感情，也需要我们的爱与关怀，孩子们却往往不能了解这一点。人生有了种种成就，稳定的事业与经济基础，美满的家庭；可悲的是自己的爸爸，妈妈却是被遗弃在养老院，孤孤单单地度过人生最后一段路。别人的父母，我真的帮不了多少，但我肯定的是自己的父母绝多不可沦落到如此下场。我深信尽孝要尽早，真的不想等到“树欲静而风不止，子欲养而亲不待”。

在我离开家里这两个月里，家里真的发生了很多事情。愉快，不愉快的都有。有时候回到来，每一个人看起来都很开心似的，但我就是知道他们不想我回到家为了这些事而不开心。但我也是家里的一分子，也有权知道家里发生的事情。唉.....

从不愁吃，不愁穿，但还是有事情去吵，去闹。自己有时候又真的是帮不到什么的。好啦，至少与其他人比起来，我家真的是幸福多了，感谢上帝。我真的希望家里大大小小，每一个都能开开心心，不要为了很小的事情而争吵，凡事最要紧是要懂得去让步。忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空。

我只能默默地祈祷......

Labels: complication, home

» Feel Bad...

Sunday, February 6, 2011

~ 12:27 AM ~

Mid-sem was a week ago, and now I am in my hometown..... Things went well for mid-sem, though I guess I didn't study very hard.... Today is the 3rd day or Lunar or Chinese New Year.... This feeling sucks.... And this post was delayed for almost a whole freaking week.... Chinese New Year isn't that fun anymore, to me at least.... I don't really care the number of angpau, don't really care about the gathering with friends or ex-schoolmates... All I want is just a short reunion with my family, and of course some peace, some quiet time....

So many things happened so suddenly, and I don't even have the time to even catch up with them.... Sometimes, I don't even have the atmosphere for me to sound out, to type a few lines, just to express myself to some of my friends.... Just a few weeks ago, the results for A-Level is announced, of course, there are people who were happy and felt like "Owning", there are like uncountable Status on Facebook, telling to everyone, that they had passed the exam, or even better, scoring the exam with 4 A* .... While some others couldn't make it through....Things are so realistic, you can't pass, you can't fly...That's wat JPA said to we scholars, it's very similar to ASEAN as well, you can't pass the rank point, you go back home....Sigh.... My seniors looks pretty tough on the outer appearances, but I do know that they are hiding some of their feelings... Good thing is that JPA don't terminate our scholarship like ASEAN do, they offer an alternative instead....All the best seniors... And congratulation to those who passed =)

Few days after that, I just got news from my Singaporean ex-classmate that some of my ex-classmate couldn't make it through J1 promos, which means they are "Retained", and this also means that they wasted 3 years, just to complete an A-level.... Similarly, I felt the same for them, they are so depressed, and yet forcing the smile on their faces.... I don't know what FML is, but I guess it's nothing good, and my friends are reading it daily, just to make them feel that their life is better than others.... A class of 19 students, now left with only 12 only, it's sad, even to people who already left, like me.....Some of them drop one of their subjects, and yeah, they are forced to change class as well..... I dunno, just felt like meeting all of them once again, before I leave for India...or somewhere else...... >.<

Chinese New Year,初三, 3rd day la.....It was a dull day, a dull chinese new year, no visiting friends, no collecting angpau, just staring at my lappy, and monitor at market of Cabal, so lifeless.... First day and second day isn't that interesting anyway, just that I realise the meaning of true JOY this new year, and that's the greatest angpau I ever get from anyone else....That's because I decided to go for New Year Service in Patani Baptist Church, and that made my whole new year thingy a meaningful one...Joy is everlasting, unlike Happiness which comes and goes...and I do think that Joy doubles, or maybe multiplies several times, if we ever share them with others... Sometimes, I don't feel happy, like now, but Joy still remains in me...

I had MAGGIE MEE for dinner, but I don't really mind, what I dislike was those unnecessary shouting, yelling and quarrelling at home, especially during Chinese New Year, when fun and joy are meant to fill the atmosphere.... Just some minor miscommunication spoil everyone mood to even go out for a freaking dinner... Instant noodle taste better, if everyone is happy .... Stupid......

Just got to chat with my buddy in Spore, Steven @ ZiKuang, glad that he enjoyed his life over there... And he managed to be one of the top in the cohort....Proud to be your roommate and classmate..... Happy new year =)

One last thing, I messages both of you, one didn't reply, and one reply with a smile......I just hope that it happen in another way... Anyway, things had passed and I can only shape my future, not past =D

~~~~~~~~~Happy Lunar New Year 2011 ~~~~~~~~~~~~

Labels: complication, event, family, friends, home

» Humility, Humanity, Obedience

Saturday, December 25, 2010

~ 7:07 PM ~

Yeah, I am baptised today in my home church - Patani Baptist Church, by Pastor Clement Chong. It was so fast, after the "Amen", all I know was, "Splash", and total wetness... And I was BAPTISED... Haha... Today's Christmas Celebration was simply, more like a conventional way of celebrating the birth of Jesus Christ... I really never expect a Baptism Ceremony to be that short...Oh yeah, my testimony went well, or should I say better than expected... It's like God working inside out in me.... =)

There was some presentation by Bible School's Kids... and LOL, they are way too cute and adorable >.< seriously, it made me recall the moments when I was in their shoe, doing those moves... and this was at least 10 years ago...And there were Chinese and English Choir by our own church members, though I think my college choir is far better =P ... Anyway, who am I to criticize or condemn, right? I just love the sermon @ message by Rev. Clement Chong... It was about the true meaning of Christmas...

"During your birthday, you had a party and invited all your friends to it... They came and celebrated it, they had fun, they talked about anything or everything, but forget about YOU, who was supposed to be the most important character of the day... What will you feel???" This is a rhetorical question asked by Rev Chong, today... And this made me reflect, how I celebrate this important day 25 December, ever since I known what it is meant for... It is not merely about gifts, presents, fun, turkey, carolling, Santa etc... Many have already forgotten the true purpose of celebrating this day, the day when Jesus Christ the Messiah is born....

Philippians 2

Imitating Christ’s Humility

"Therefore if you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any common sharing in the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and of one mind. Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others. In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus."

This chapter reminds us of the ways of being a real Christian, ways to be more and more Christ-like, not deviated to the wrong path of life... It shows us that Jesus die a humiliated way, which no human beings ever wanted.... He is crucified on the cross =( .. all because of us.... LOL, i don't wanna drag this post anymore =) ..... It's just that I really really experienced true Christmas' spirit this year .....

Watch this video, it means a lot, and it was sang by the KTT Christmas Choir 2010 as well.....

Merry Christmas All =)

Labels: Christianity, family, home

» Met Up With Firelynx

Monday, December 6, 2010

~ 8:18 PM ~

Yeah, finally all the year-end stuff for my dad's clinic is finally done.... Hehe, and I get to go out and meet ONE of my friends, haha, of course, as I mentioned earlier, the noob Firelynx, hahahaha.... He seems fine, and I'm glad.... seriously.... But too bad time is limited..... Argh...... I never regretted spending the whole afternoon with my best buddy ever..... Haha, just remember to have a plan and aim in your life, and let everything goes with the flow =) .....Oh yeah, I owe you one FT run, haha.... I remember the last time I scolded you noob when you simply use battlemode......Hehe..... Never mind, now I'm pro enough hehe....

Seriously, I will really with the time I spend during Primary 5, playing Pokemon Red version, LOL, and got stone by you until I bleed like mad..... Stupid la you.... Hehe.... though we didn't spend much time during secondary school, I never doubted that our friendship would fade... =) Bro, all the best in your studies and future endeavour man..... Haha......

Aiksss, you know what I'm going back to KTT tomorrow morning... Hehe mixed feelings once again, Yop gave me a good news, LOL, his application to remain in ALL7 is approved, haha.... He will get to bug me all the time once again, haha... Sorry Yop, you are still my good buddy =)... hehe

Anyway, I'm looking forward to meeting Gaston, Hongshen, maybe Zhengdong and Candice tomorrow, see you all =).....

Labels: friends, home, school

» I gained weight

Saturday, December 4, 2010

~ 11:04 AM ~

As mentioned above, I've gained weight since the day I come back home...... Argh, Pain!!!!!!!!!!! But the thing is that food at home is so tempting....So so so so tempting.... It's time to get back in shape..... and KTT is just the perfect place to slim down, I just have to grab a loaf of bread from the MiniMart, and lock myself in the dorm..... No more, oily mamak food, no more mouth-watering INTI hawker food.... Hello, ButterScotch......I just hope that I won't get bored of you..... >.<

Sigh, 2 more days at home, I haven't meet up with Firelynx..... He is so busy, so am I..... Aiksss, he got lots of TUITION !!!!!, which I hated, A LOT.......but sometimes, we can't help it, cause our teachers in schools are way too NOOB..... NOOB NOOB NOOB...... Not to condemn, just stating FACTS..... I'll compliment good and dedicated teachers (lecturers) too, THANK YOU for all your hard work, I LOVE YOU ALL..... =)

Hehe....There are one thing I gotta mention, is that...I am glad that everything is in place, and the Baptism class last night went just fine.....I'll be baptised during this Christmas, Hooray.... =) It may not be significant to others, but it's very important to me......The problem is that I'm quite stucked with my old stupid habit.... I dunno what to say.....

When I am at KTT, I tends to miss home... Miss brewing the coffee, miss the scoldings from my dad, miss the hugs from my mum, miss the PK with my bro....too much to be mentioned.... On the other hand, I feel the same when I'm at home, I missed fellow KTTians a lot too, Soo, Kuang, Xiong, KianPoh, I can't list all of you down.....I love my "TRUE FRIENDS" gang, CF, classmates, housemates..... Miss you all.....I just hope that I can be like Geomancer or Chaos Knight or any other who can split themselves into 2 or more ..... Hehe.....

Mum and dad seems fine, I knew that even though there are fights sometimes..... God will hold them together.... I am very certain of that, and I'm very grateful of that....And being Christians, makes all the difference in us, we might not be perfect, but we knew what we are living on the right path.....

I love this 名句 by Mr Lau ( Counsellor in my Secondary school)... Here goes..
“做人最重要是要有原则; 有了原则，就算做不成好人，也不至于太坏。。。。”
Thanks, Mr Lau.... =)

Labels: family, friends, home, philosophy, school

» Done with my PhotoAlbum

Thursday, December 2, 2010

~ 4:55 PM ~

Everything is so fine at home, good food, cosy bed, dad, mums, bros.....And the best part is that my life at home is free from books and studies.... I am still stucked with the stupid "City Of Wonders", and the best part of all is that I met up with my old buddy, Firelynx, in Cabal.... hehe.... He haven't changed at all, still so noob =)... Haha...... And I spent 1500 bucks, just to get another nice looking outfit on the PC screen... sounds stupid, right ???? Anyway, I feel great after spending that much of money, haha.......

It seems that I am quite happy and carefree after ruining and flunking some of my final semester papers....... I still have faith and some hope that I can still achieve a 20 rankpoints, teehee... Oh yeah, YongKuang is back from Thailand, and he acted so "Sawadeekarp", so noob la him....... Swt... Anyway, I just hope that he'll get something Nice for me, haha........

I don't think it's good to judge people, but sometimes being human, we can't help it.... But, I've been trying seriously hard, and thanks to my good buddies around, reminding me from time to time... You know what, Joseph wasted his whole holidays, trying to beat me in "City Of Wonders", LOL, he is trying to achieve the impossibles, haha...........

I'm looking forward to meeting you, Cheeyao, next weekend, just hope that it'll no coincide with the CF meeting that will be held in Subang Jaya...... I really love the rainy weather back at home....... LIKE, LIKE, LIKE!!!! >.< Back to title, I finally finished the IMSO 2010, photo album, woohoo, and it took me two whole days..... And guess what, I have another Family Album to complete..... >.< Gotta go.......

p/s: I lose to my bro in DOTA, swt......noob.....

Labels: cabal, CF, family, friends, home

» Video Uploaded

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

~ 5:00 PM ~

I uploaded the CF Farewell Video on Facebook =) haha, it was an awesome video, I'm gonna miss you all so so so so much....... Thank you seniors, thank you Edwin for the lovely cards, seriously, it meant a lot to me....

By the way, I am quite busy during this holidays, trying to get my dad's year end stuff done before I leave home for the next semester.... Anyway, I am quite stucked to the stupid facebook " City of Wonders", >.<... You know what, Maegy's blog is so....filled with his pictures..... What an eyesore =P , Sorry Maegy .....

Last Sunday, I went to Church as usual, but something funny happened that night.... Our invited speaker for the night did not turn up.... and he didn't pick you his cellphone..... Swt, right.... Oh yeah, I went for the open sharing that night, sharing about the things that happened in my college....

My church members were amazed by the great things that God have done in the Christian Fellowship in KTT.... Many never expect a CF in a government school.....I don't know what kind of college is KTT though .....Anyway, I do know that God is moving every single one of us in this very college..... Amen.....

Jeremiah 29:11 For He know He has His plans for us, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.... I nearly forget this verse when sharing with a congregation of nearly 100 people >.< ....LOL....

Lazy to type already, to be continue.........=)

Labels: cabal, home

» End of First Semester........

Sunday, November 28, 2010

~ 9:56 AM ~

I am at home...... 2nd day back in Sungai Petani...... and everything is fine except for the intense situation which is similar to what happened the last time I came back..... Anyway, I can just pray and hope for the best....

You know what, I survived one semester one KTT life, but to be honest, it was not that bad, with all my buddies around... It was 5month ago, when I first came to this "ulu" place, and now I can't imagine what will it be like, when we leave KTT next year end.... Final semester exams are over, and I seems to have flunk my Chemistry Paper 1, which I thought will be the easiest paper of all... >.< Overconfident......

Classes are reshuffled, and lots of new classmates join us, the worst part is that, Soo, Yop and some of my dearest classmates are leaving us. It's gonna be a whole new semester next week, with new people to mingle with.... I just hope there will be better and more responsible lecturer next semester....

Last night my friend told me that I don't seem like myself when being nice..... Swt...... Anyway, I think I'm a nice guy....LOL =P I really dunno whether can I make it to meet my friend Gaston in Kuala Lumpur..... >.< Argh........

Labels: home

» Last night at home....

Monday, November 8, 2010

~ 1:23 AM ~

This trip back was really really short and fast, it just disappear in a blink of an eye.... Just spend some time at home, some for the National Competition, and that's it, 5 days gone... This made me understand why "Time" is always a more preferable physical quantities than any other quantities... Poof, one semester nearly done in KTT, and examinations are approaching.... I left Singapore for nearly 5 months already.... And I left Sin Min Secondary for 1 year already... Can't imagine how fast can oneself grow, how fast can something start and end just like that, how long can our friends, families be around us..... What I am really grateful of is that, I am a blessed kid, with a awesome family, and a bunch of true friends being around with me all the time no matter where I am....

I am now on my cosy bed, staring at my screen, thinking back the last time I was back at home.....Millions of memories, sweet and bitter, are going here and there in my mind.... Some of them are permanent, but the others will fade over time.....What I regretted is that I can't make it to meet YiKuan this time, even though he took the effort to find me.... Time is really a limiting factor this time....Sorry bro...Just by reading the chinese characters on your blog, I can't stop thinking the moment we fought in school, playing "Pokemon", "Civilization 3", and "Cabal" together, the time during Kem Keselamatan Jalan Raya.... Things happened so fast, and look where are we now, who are we now, and what are we doing now... But, one thing I can be sure of is that you are my best buddy ever.....

Oh yeah, I was happy to have a little conversation with my new friend =) Mr Kiing, he is indeed a nice n "cute" guy... enjoy talking with him, even though there was a little misunderstanding between us few weeks ago... Who never make mistakes, right??? Anyhow, we are friends now, right, Mr Kiing??? Haha.... heard that you are glued to your chair, studying and mugging non-stop....Time to relax and catch a breath... Good luck in your exams anyway...(This applies to all UCSI students =P )

Finally, dad and mum talked, thank you God, problems are meant to be solved right??? It should work out this way, yeah..... Things are settled before I'm back to KTT for my final test... Hope to get 20/20 points, though I haven't really started any revision... will start the revision right after I get back there, "true friends" in KTT - Soo, YongKee, Xiong etc etc....keep an eye on me, thanks......We must excel in all internal exams, not only AS and A2 =) Gambateh....

Labels: friends, home

» Conflict....

Friday, November 5, 2010

~ 12:43 AM ~

I dunno why, atmosphere are so down at home.... Everyone is so moody and unhappy..... Dad and Mum are not talking to each other....I'm the one stucked in the middle.... They said things are normal, when things are not.... I dunno wat to say, and I dunno where to start....

God, please help me......I know that whenever I knock a door, it will be opened for me

"Kuketuk PintuMu dan Kau Bukakan.............."

Labels: complication, home

» Home

Thursday, November 4, 2010

~ 8:59 AM ~

I am Home again =) Yeah, back in Sungai Petani...... Though the journey was a bit long, and tiring, it was worthy.... SP has changed a lot, railway tracks are being built, buildings are demolished... Things really change as time passes by.... First person I saw was my DAD =) ... He looked tired, I guess tension and pressure from all kind of sources made him that wasy =( I just wanted my parents to be happy, sigh..... Just willing to lend my ears for them to grumble, to complain... Life is so short, we never know what will happen tomorrow...That's why I never wanted to give up even a single second at home, with my dad, my mum, brothers, sister, grandmum.... I am never a "homesick" person, but whenever I leave home, I always wanted to go back there...What I wanted to say is that there is no place like Home....

Slept on cosy, large and comfy bed >.< , unlike the one in KTT....LOL... Went around to eat my favourite food, Friend Kuey Tiao, Fried Oyster, Curry Mee, woots.... These food are beyond undescribable, haha....
Oh yeah, I saw my cousin Glenice, she can sit now, haha, don't have to carry her here and there already =) Looking forward to seeing you walk and call me 大哥 =), haha....

A lot more to talk about......TBC.....

Labels: family, home

» Happy Birthday S.P Dental

Saturday, September 18, 2010

~ 2:40 PM ~

Today is the 21st anniversary of my father's empire - S.P. Dental Surgery.....My second home
It is established 4 days after my parents' wedding day ( 14th September 1989 )...

A little bit about my 2nd home =)
Its a place where most people fear, haha......
Extraction, fillings, scalling of teeth happens here nearly everyday, cause my daddy works 7days a week =/
I grew up in this very place, watching it grow together with me...

It moves from a small shophouse to a bigger one in year 2000, if I'm nt mistaken....
People come and people leave....Here, there are one group of people tat I called "kakak"
They are the Dental Surgery Assistant, I cant rememeber how many of them that cherish every single moment of my life.....The first one that I rememeber, Kak Milah all the way to Kak Su, who is the recent one......

Sigh, this clinic grow and celebrates it's 21st Birthday, and I'm 18 now.... time really flies....
I can't describe how much I love this clinic, but too bad I'm pursuing Medicine instead of dentistry......
Because this is my destiny and my father's dream of all time, though he dun admit it =P
Sometimes, I'm so tired but I still never give up a single moment to be in the place, to be in my father's kingdom, to be wif Him, my daddy......

Dad, I remember wat people said to you 21years ago,
"辉仁，你这间诊所一定不行的！！"
Today, dad, you proved all of them wrong, S.P. Dental is one of them best dental surgery in Malaysia , Hooray!!!! Not that I wanna boast, I'm just stating the FACT ><

Spending time in this post, memories that comprises of my childhood can't stop flowing out of nowhere....
This is where I learn my Math, and guess who is my teacher, He is my almighty DADDY =)
This is the place where I fight my brothers, in real world, and in PlayStation world, haha......I always beat them in both dimensions.......

I guess tats it for now..... Happy birthday once again!!!!!!
God Bless S.P. Dental Surgery and all its Members.....

Current staff:
Dr Loo ( My dad)
Ng SK ( My mum)
Kak Miza
Kak Su
Lyvana ( My Big Sis)

i'm goin back to ktt tomorrow, fusion of feelings inside

Labels: family, home