Life That Has Been Changed By Him

» 无奈

Monday, August 1, 2011

~ 11:20 AM ~

上个礼拜从巴厘岛回到了学校，我根本就无法停下来歇一口气。
身旁真的是发生了许许多多的事情，
根本没机会去理会所错过的课堂，学业...
很庆幸，这次去巴厘岛没有白费，学弟们虽说没有表现特出的，获得几面奖牌，我想已是足够了。

然而，这不是我最近令我心烦的，
短短几天，几天没上网，家乡发生许许多多事情。
事发突然，与我从小玩到大的朋友，又再次入院。
这次，医生也束手无策，被逼使用人人所避忌的方式－洗肾。

身为朋友，身为兄弟的我，望着眼前残酷得事实，
看着你与病魔战斗的时候，那坚强的斗志，那持久的毅力，
实在让我钦佩。
兄弟，我真的无法再对你说任何鼓励你的话语。
你这一条路走了两年，皮肉上的疼痛，精神上的折磨...
我知道身为旁观者的我，是无法了解的。
我只能说得是，我永远都会是你的兄弟。
生命中是充满着希望与奇迹的。

小学是记得，你为了要“抛砖引玉”，我们俩反而打了起来。
当然是我先出手，但最终还是打成一片，所谓不打不相识嘛。
只要自己还没放弃，人生还不会是“Game Over”的，
好想念以前一起玩Cabal的时候，
虽说你很Noob，但我这位兄弟是永远撑着你的。

你曾问我，
“为何这种是不找其他人，偏偏就是找上我？”
其实，我深思了很久，也问了很多很多人，
就只能告诉你，世界是很现实，很不公平的。
然而，在这冷酷得事实当中，人间还是充满着温暖。

最后一张与你一同拍照，

记得千万不要放弃。

～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～

人家常说，生离死别乃是无法避免的，
上个星期，63位学兄学姐们，已乘搭马航飞到了印度。
机场都充满着离别的愁情，
家人，朋友都在场送机。有些很舍不得爸爸妈妈，
有些抱着男女朋友，哭哭啼啼的....
我自己在那里，心想明年这时候，我将会是怎样离开的。

那么多学兄学姐们，令我最不舍的就只有一位－恩维
感谢你一年以来一直陪伴着我，
当人人都说着我的不是，你依然没有放弃我。
你教会了我不要去理会别人的眼光，
只要自己问心无愧就可以了。

在我无助的时候，在我开心的时候，
你往往都会与我分享。
当然与你冷战了一个月后，我发觉了许许多多的事物。
我知道已错怪了你，谢谢你从不计较。

时间过的真的非常快，转瞬间一年就这样溜走了。
很想念与你一起疯癫的日子，
一起学习神的话语，
庆祝对方的生日。

你的每一句话，对我曾经做过的事物，
都深深刻在我心中。回想在一起的美好回忆，
泪水情不自禁留了下来，犹如已爆掉的水管般。

那晚，回到了学校，不知是不是巧合，
大风刮起了，雨也下个不停。整个气氛变得更加的Down

在印度，你要好好的照顾自己，
同时我相信更多的生命，心灵会被你所感动的。
希望这次的离别不会是永远，但愿在世界的那一角落，
我们又会重聚。
然而，当你我之间都隔着印度洋的时候，你要珍重。
同时我也会继续的努力，
学业，心灵上，都会不断努力，奋斗的。
还很想感谢你老远拨了那一通电话给我 (:
God Bless...

～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～

前两天，考完IELTS后，我拖着疲劳生病着的自己，
与学弟学妹们前往星光大道。
这是我第 n 次来到了这里，没什么新鲜感了，
就只想逛一逛，看一看，感受一下城市的气氛。
但就在那一天，我从一位学弟身上了解了不少事物。
看起来很开心的人，心里面所面对的的种种忧虑，
可能多的很。
家里，学业上，朋友方面，
所面对的压力，问题，
看表面的外人是无法去感受的。

身为万物之灵的我们，
思维方面当然比其他动物发达，
但智慧呢？

很多时候，我们都不懂得去感恩。
一眼望去，身边的朋友，有不少是单亲家庭，
有些面对着经济上的问题，
还有的百病缠身。

我们这一些有手有脚的，
不用为了三餐而烦恼的，
双亲健健康康活着的，
还在那里怨天尤人。

面对着一点点功课上的压力，
就埋怨，责怪老师。
钱一不够用，就马上向父母伸手要，
就好像把父母当成不用密码的提款机。
有时候连谢谢一声都不会说，
读了那么多年的书，
讲起来好像比猪还要笨，还要蠢。
有得吃反而在那里挑，
被人训了还自以为是。

到底，多少人懂得“惜福”这词的定义？

～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～

昨夜，是我另一个好朋友的生日，
悲喜交集吧，一个在家乡我却无法陪伴着他，还在这里庆祝生日。
她也是我大约十个月前，
刚刚认识的，可能两人都在CF被选为委员，
有这缘分做朋友。
说真的这是我第一次与异性同学做好朋友。
当然，这一段友谊所面对的问题，
都是我没预料到的。
别人异样的眼光，所散播的谣言，绯闻，
我们真的经历过，也学会了怎样去面对。

感谢你一直把我当成好友一样看待，
一直鼓励，一直支持这我。

再次，祝你生日快乐，爱嬛。

Labels: complication, friends

» Alamanda again...

Sunday, July 17, 2011

~ 5:30 PM ~

Twenty of us from Orientation Group 8 actually plan to go bowling at Alamanda. But last night, only seven of us turned up. Even though it's kind of disappointing, but an outing is still an outing, and we still had fun... This is the 6th time going there, but of course with different bunch of people...

We had dinner at Nando's...

My awesome juniors

The green one is Charles', I think it's kinda humiliating him.... (=

And yeah, he is the only person who went for Lemon & Herbs..

No doubt movie tickets for Harry Potter have already been sold out... And so, we just went bowling... It's been quite some time since the last time I bowl... One thing I can say, I suck at bowling !!! I guess the money I spent do nothing good, besides humiliating myself ): Charles is really good at this, and He is also very good at racing... I admit that we seniors got owned flat flat... >.<

We spent quite a lot in the video arcade, playing Time Crisis, Daytona, the dancing game... It was really a stress-free night (:

Kok Boon's signature move (:

I really do appreciate the time we spent together last night. It's really gonna be quite awhile before the next outing. I'm pretty sure that the seniors are going to get really busy, as IELTS is coming up, as well as Mid-Sem examinations.

Serious one...

Funny Faces

I'm gonna miss the whole week of classes. God bless me... Hopefully, I can catch up with the lecturers...
Praying hard for our AS results... >.<

Labels: event, friends, school

» Friendship

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

~ 6:07 PM ~

I just found out something lately, something that really got me thinking, again and again... There is this question that kept appearing on my mind...

"To what extend can someone exploit a friendship?"

Two people get together and then grow closer, till the point that they are "friends"... I guess everyone expects something from a friendship, sort of like a return of investment thing.

Some of us do not demand much, all we want is a bit of attention, a person who cares for us, who gives us a lift whenever we need it...

It's true that a person's demands are way too hard to be satisfied. Consciously or unconsciously, sometimes we tend to cross the line and start to ask for a little too much from our friends.

Just few days ago, I was really shocked when I knew my own batch-mate exploited one of his friends, to the extent which is really unacceptable...

How much do you actually expect from a friendship??

Is it really an investment that gives you any returns??

Do you really expect your friends to treat you the way you treat them??

In fact, everyone of us wants our friends to treat us as nicely as possible. But, some of us really want to take full advantage of our friendships.

If he is smart, I must study or do revision with him.

If he has a car, I can go out without paying any transportation fees.

If he is rich, I can actually get free treats from him.

etc... etc...

How much more can you want from the person whom you call your friend?

What's the actual definition of a friend?

Seriously, I think it's time for us to reflect upon what we've done for our friends, rather than keep on asking from them. Why can't we try to give instead of waiting to receive, for once?

很多人都说，

" 朋友是互相利用的。"

对你而言，这句话对吗？

Think again, were you there when they needed you the most ???

Labels: friends

» Becoming Seniors

Monday, June 27, 2011

~ 12:28 AM ~

Last day today, and I'm gonna be a senior tomorrow... It's gonna be quite a long day tomorrow, and yeah, I'm put to be in charged of "FOOD", out of everything else, food.... It's not a bad thing after all, it's kinda easy job to do...

I'm having mixture of feelings now, cause it feels like yesterday only when I first came to KTT... Though it's just one year, but a lot of things happened, and I never regret being here... Anticipating the juniors' arrival, I really do hope that this batch of juniors, will be as awesome as us... Not to brag, but I seriously do think that my batch-mates are way too awesome...

We've been working to prepare for the junior's orientation week... It's been quite tiring, with those meetings , at around 10pm... I felt a bit disappointed with some of the seniors-to-be... It's like when we need manpower, literally MANPOWER, but only couple of us turned up... I'm not gonna mentioned who, but I can see your passion for juniors...

I seriously wonder how selfish can a person be?

Chen Haw just came back from a full marathon, and he made it in 5 hours and 30 minutes... He is a person I look up to, all these while... When I realized how much a person can go the extra miles, and leave his or her comfort zone, merely to help others, and to bless the needy... "Every step I take, few cents are donated to charity"... How many participants can run a marathon of 42 kilometers, with this kind of mentality? I was really stunned, knowing that there's a friend of mine, who can really go beyond his limits, for the sake of others...

说到朋友，正豪真的是位值得学习的对象。。。

但今天，我也不算是白过了，至少也花了宝贵的时间，

陪伴了一位朋友，一个我觉得非常特别的一个人。。。

虽说她很少会出来社交，但人却很令人喜欢。。。

谈到许许多多的事物，也交换了不少的意见。

我真的不想再错过生命中的任何一个人，

想珍惜每一段友谊，

把每一段友谊发挥到最好，

不想日后才后悔，才遗憾。。。

学业错过了，来日还会有；

事业错过了，不怕找不到；

财运错过了，还会在来；

但身边的人，错过了，恐怕以后就没有了。。。

有些事情变成了往事，就只能去回味。

就像Senior，他们走了，要飞了，

当然是不会再回来的，

他们的存在，就是往事。。。

好啦，夜了，不再啰嗦了

改次，我会尽量用英文的,IELTS毕竟快要到了。

Labels: friends, school

» Jogoya

Saturday, June 11, 2011

~ 9:25 AM ~

AS was over, and life is getting a whole lot easier, without books and exam papers bugging me... After spending for the past few days, it made me feel great... Really had a great time with Kuang's family at his place...Thanks Kuang for driving me around Kuala Lumpur =)

And I was really enjoying myself in Jogoya, a Japanese buffet in Starhill... Thanks to Kuang, Jeremy, MeiHan, ChiaChia and I-vonne... Never knew Jeremy could actually eat that much...

And finally after 4 months, I get to meet my family, at least some of them, in KL as well... I was tired for the past few days... Had been walking around in Bukit Bintang for the whole day...

Labels: family, friends

» Thoughts...

Thursday, May 19, 2011

~ 2:18 AM ~

It's been nearly a month since the last post, I guess exams are doing a good job keeping me busy... Have been studying lately, since everyone is also doing so... It's been quite happening for the last month, and I really thank God for that... though the studying part is monotonous and tiring... For now Math is done, Biology mostly done, guess it's time to give myself a short break, as I am seriously worn-out physically, mentally and spiritually... For now, I'm seriously vulnerable to almost anything...

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On the 29th of April, I went to Edwin's place in Kajang... Felt kinda awkward at first, but his family really made me felt at home... Celebrated his 20th birthday, with his family in Manhattan Fish Market, it was really a good experience, feeling belong, cared for, even if I'm not at home... Had great meals over there, Satay Kajang, home-cooked dishes by Aunty Irene... I really do think that I put on some weight.... Thanks Edwin for being a great friend to me despite my attitude towards you.... >.<

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By the way, I just turned 19 two days ago.... Life is fast and short, huh??? I wonder how many more birthdays can I celebrate.... Thank God, for bringing me into this world =) Thank you Daddy and Mummy for making it possible as well =P This year is the second year I celebrate my birthday outside home... Honestly, I do really miss all those moments when my family sing the birthday song for me... But, I'm very grateful this year, that although my birthday always falls on exams period, my friends in KTT gave me a serious surprise this year... Last year, my Mcnairian buddies brought me to the Pool, but this year they brought the "Pool" to me, TWICE !!!!! Despite being SO smart, as I thought, I was seriously fooled by them.....

They plotted some fake birthday one day before the real celebration, and I do admit that it really disappoint me, in one way or the other.... But, I'm really grateful that they come despite the exams period... U guys are awesome man.... The real one was more... SHOCKING, cause I really thought that it was over... I'm surprised, stunned for a moment, and most importantly touched for whatever you guys did for me.... Thanks Kuang, Soo, Kok Boon, for the giant birthday card, Yong Kee, for his brilliant idea, Edwin for a shirt, John , my angel, for a shirt as well, and another 2 SHIRTS, from you guys..... If my math isn't wrong, I've got a total of 4 SHIRTS this year..... >.< Thanks all, Xiong, KianPoh... and all of you guys that make it possible... Loads and Loads of appreciation...

Group Pics "Lynton 帅不帅?"

Happy Birthday "Lyton" =)

Thanks Kian Poh =)

I really do know everyone tried to make it possible.... thanks for all the effort..... I really do appreciate it.......

Thanks Uncle Chan and Family for the cake...... That's so sweet of you all =)

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Juniors are coming..... I am so excited...... Made some new friends on Facebook.... =D

Labels: friends, philosophy

» It Sucks

Friday, April 1, 2011

~ 1:07 AM ~

I can't login my facebook today, some kind of crap just happened to it.... I don't know whether is it permanent or temporary.... Anyway, I'm not happy....

But there is something that made my day.... I finally gave up my ego, and once again accept someone and forget about the past... It did happened, but it was already the past... Thanks Pastor Edwin, for the long sharing last night... I finally "Reincarnate" after being socially dead for the past month... I have my Pre-AS next week, but I guess there's nothing to worry, as long as I'm "Giving My Best".... I won't feel sorry, or regretful if I don't get what I want, or expect...

I was thinking that, I can plan whatever I want, and work hard for it, even till the extent of giving up something I treasure so much... But whether it succeeds or not, it's not up to me to decide after all... It was quite stressful for the past weeks, being stuck with loads of books to study, and syllabus to cover... Sometimes, I just feel like a loser... but in fact, I'm not one.... sigh...

A less productive day today, didn't really spent much time on studies, will make up tomorrow I guess.... And I still have to be in charge of Praise and worship despite the upcoming exams.... Never forget this verse,

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness,

and all these things will be given to you as well.

~Matthew 6 : 33~

And yeah my dad reminds me of that when I told him about it, I guess I should know my role, my part to play being a Christian. I should know how to prioritize stuff, and put God first in anything I do.... I always knew that following Him is to give up everything, and anything.... And I'm trying my best to follow Him, to be a Disciple of Christ, not merely a believer... I'll just commit every part of my life into Your hands, and You'll make wonders and miracles will happen :)

P/S: To my friend, I really do appreciate for today, you've made my day.....

I do mean it =)

Labels: complication, friends, philosophy

» Busy Life Ahead...

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

~ 9:17 PM ~

Pre-AS has just started, and the race has jut begun... Everyone of us anticipated the arrival of this exam, a platform for us to prove ourselves worthy to enroll ourselves in either Medicine or Dentistry course... Life is gonna be busier, and time will be the limiting-factor...

I guess I won't be spending too much time here as well... It's time for me to catch up with Life... To once again get myself into the "Nerd" mode, to at least score for the upcoming exams... I have a purpose to excel in my studies, an objective to fulfill...

I am also planning to coach another batch of juniors this year.... Just hope that Time will allow me to do so.... Last year, we went to Bali and we show the world who we are =) They were all given some sort of BSJ title by Sultan few days ago... All the best, Yew, Ming Pei, Wei Sern, Kai Siang, John and Chew... You all made me proud >.<

I'll just commit everything to Him, once again...

Commit to the LORD whatever you do,

and he will establish your plans.

~Proverbs 16 : 3~

Labels: friends, school

» Counting Mushroom....

Saturday, March 12, 2011

~ 2:17 PM ~

Guess what, I'm so bored of the life in KTT... and I'm already counting the mushroom.... My friends in Singapore are having their test, the the lecturers are having their holidays, haha ... Somehow, I just miss the happening lifestyle in Singapore ... My life is just too monotonous over here in Sepang... Studying, sleeping, going online.... what is this ?????

Last night I went google-ing, and there were this highlighted warning regarding an 8.9 magnitude earthquake in Japan... There's nothing to do with Malaysia, nothing to do with me... But, lives are lost, people from the other side of the world are struggling for survival... Grateful that, I'm here, free from any natural disasters. And I really do hope that God will be with these people during this critical period in their lives...

Yesterday, during CF, we watched the movie " Fireproof ", there was this quote saying that "Fireproof doesn't mean the fire will never come. It means when the fire comes that you will be able to withstand it." This is my second time watching it, and yet it still touched me in a different way... New things are revealed to me, a better way to handle life, or should I say giving it up and let Him handle it... A better understanding of love, unconditional sacrificing for your love one... The very simple way of getting along with others ...

My dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to
speak and slow to become angry ~ James 1 : 19

Just wanna commit, my family, friends, and the victims of Japan earthquake into His hand. As well as my personal life, studies and relationship...

Labels: CF, complication, friends, movie

» Feel Bad...

Sunday, February 6, 2011

~ 12:27 AM ~

Mid-sem was a week ago, and now I am in my hometown..... Things went well for mid-sem, though I guess I didn't study very hard.... Today is the 3rd day or Lunar or Chinese New Year.... This feeling sucks.... And this post was delayed for almost a whole freaking week.... Chinese New Year isn't that fun anymore, to me at least.... I don't really care the number of angpau, don't really care about the gathering with friends or ex-schoolmates... All I want is just a short reunion with my family, and of course some peace, some quiet time....

So many things happened so suddenly, and I don't even have the time to even catch up with them.... Sometimes, I don't even have the atmosphere for me to sound out, to type a few lines, just to express myself to some of my friends.... Just a few weeks ago, the results for A-Level is announced, of course, there are people who were happy and felt like "Owning", there are like uncountable Status on Facebook, telling to everyone, that they had passed the exam, or even better, scoring the exam with 4 A* .... While some others couldn't make it through....Things are so realistic, you can't pass, you can't fly...That's wat JPA said to we scholars, it's very similar to ASEAN as well, you can't pass the rank point, you go back home....Sigh.... My seniors looks pretty tough on the outer appearances, but I do know that they are hiding some of their feelings... Good thing is that JPA don't terminate our scholarship like ASEAN do, they offer an alternative instead....All the best seniors... And congratulation to those who passed =)

Few days after that, I just got news from my Singaporean ex-classmate that some of my ex-classmate couldn't make it through J1 promos, which means they are "Retained", and this also means that they wasted 3 years, just to complete an A-level.... Similarly, I felt the same for them, they are so depressed, and yet forcing the smile on their faces.... I don't know what FML is, but I guess it's nothing good, and my friends are reading it daily, just to make them feel that their life is better than others.... A class of 19 students, now left with only 12 only, it's sad, even to people who already left, like me.....Some of them drop one of their subjects, and yeah, they are forced to change class as well..... I dunno, just felt like meeting all of them once again, before I leave for India...or somewhere else...... >.<

Chinese New Year,初三, 3rd day la.....It was a dull day, a dull chinese new year, no visiting friends, no collecting angpau, just staring at my lappy, and monitor at market of Cabal, so lifeless.... First day and second day isn't that interesting anyway, just that I realise the meaning of true JOY this new year, and that's the greatest angpau I ever get from anyone else....That's because I decided to go for New Year Service in Patani Baptist Church, and that made my whole new year thingy a meaningful one...Joy is everlasting, unlike Happiness which comes and goes...and I do think that Joy doubles, or maybe multiplies several times, if we ever share them with others... Sometimes, I don't feel happy, like now, but Joy still remains in me...

I had MAGGIE MEE for dinner, but I don't really mind, what I dislike was those unnecessary shouting, yelling and quarrelling at home, especially during Chinese New Year, when fun and joy are meant to fill the atmosphere.... Just some minor miscommunication spoil everyone mood to even go out for a freaking dinner... Instant noodle taste better, if everyone is happy .... Stupid......

Just got to chat with my buddy in Spore, Steven @ ZiKuang, glad that he enjoyed his life over there... And he managed to be one of the top in the cohort....Proud to be your roommate and classmate..... Happy new year =)

One last thing, I messages both of you, one didn't reply, and one reply with a smile......I just hope that it happen in another way... Anyway, things had passed and I can only shape my future, not past =D

~~~~~~~~~Happy Lunar New Year 2011 ~~~~~~~~~~~~

Labels: complication, event, family, friends, home

» Another Unforgettable One.......Or Two

Sunday, January 9, 2011

~ 9:45 AM ~

It was another Saturday....And yeah, we are so "confident" that we GAVE UP studying for the upcoming mid-sem........ teehee...So, we were off to Klang 巴生，a town in Selangor, famous for the Local delicacies - Bak Kut Teh =) Early this morning, we rented an Automatic Proton Saga, and departed around 9.15.... and we were late, thanks to Yop, Soo and Xiong >.< The driver is Yong Kuang by the way, and it took us around 1 hour 15 minutes to go to the new Jusco in Klang, to meet out Tour Guide - Vince =) Everything was so fine, and we went for brunch, and yeah, of course we had the FAMOUS BAK KUT TEH.......woohoo.... Too bad, both the Dry and Wet version were eaten up, before I even have the chance to take some pictures of it.....It was so so so so so Yummy, and the price is way too reasonable, only 14 bucks per person !!!!!!!!!!!!!

After filling up our belly, of course we'll go spend those CALORIES!!!!! And guess what, we burnt those calories by Singing a.k.a Karaoke-ing in Green Box, which is far cheaper than Red Box....And we were still in Klang =) This singing experience together with Soo, was really unforgettable, he went out of pitch for uncountable times =P Anyway, all of us really had lots of fun......You know what, this Jusco is this largest Jusco in the whole Malaysia !!!! We spent around an hour strolling around the mall....burn some time =)

Next stop - Sunway Pyramid...AGAIN.... We went there just for the sake of dropping Soo, I guess >.< Mission accomplished, we had nothing else to do... Just continue to burn our time....After dinner with Soo's friend, Chun Siang, we decided to go back to our college..... And this was when the interesting part start =) Everything was still going fine, until, suddenly, nothing happen when Yong Kuang stepped on the accelerator pedal....GG.... Our Proton Saga is out of fuel ( at least I guess so ).....Hooray, and we were in the middle of ELITE Highway.....Good job to all of us.....We called the car owner....and it didn't help, even for a little....Luckily, we had the PLUS Hotline, and made that call... They arrived in around 25minutes, and told us that,"Okay, your can is out of fuel"....which we already expected......Okay, so now? They went off with our 20bucks and promised to bet us some fuel.....

Tick tock tick tock, another 30minutes passed......And guess what we were doing.....This is what we were doing......

Making retarded faces, and taking pictures..... I remember Yop said, " I'm not worry when Lynton is around".... I was like LOL deep inside my heart >.< Anyway, the fuel is here after another 30minutes of waiting.... We were so relieved and grateful....The car is on the road again..... Woohoo...... We wasted 1.5 hour, and 20 bucks, which was given to the guy that helped us =)

I was quite happy with this trip, although stupid stuff like this happened.... Haha, but no one complain, everyone is trying hard to solve this problem..... And we really learnt a lesson......a really unforgettable one....a lesson that taught us not to save money on FUEL when going for a long distance drive =).....

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This post should be posted earlier, sometime like 2days ago..... But due to tiredness and time shortage, I decided to delay it....It's about another unforgettable one...=) DOTA tournament, in KTT!!!!! Can you believe it... One year against 1.5 years.... We had Joshua, Tan, Alex, Lik Hoe and Jackson for the One year team... and Soo, Xiong, Sam, Kee and Me for the 1.5 years =).... This was way too awesome..... It last like around 3 hours...in my apartment , teehee.....

I dunno, but the game seems one sided.... And the 1.5years seems to own.... haha....Shouts and laughter did not cease that night.... Although we seems to own, but we put friendship before the game.... Haha....I dunno why, but it sounds so funny.... Anyway, this was really another good way to bond we students together..... I have nothing more to say, just that it was really an awesome time together .....

Labels: friends, retard, school

» It's time to do something about it

Thursday, January 6, 2011

~ 9:32 PM ~

Something has been bothering me for quite some time, something that I can't talk to anyone about.... That's why sometime I choose to keep quiet, I prefer to be alone, doing nothing, thinking about nothing.... I guess this weird feeling occur because of a person.... It's kind of stupid, argh..... I've been wasting my time thinking about this person. In fact, I don't really know what I'm doing..... It never happen to me, felling for someone whom I know I shouldn't, I've promised Edwin not to get involved in any unnecessary relationship, not until I finish my A-level or my freaking Medicine degree..... Crap, I'm not Edwin, come on, I don't even think I can last for this year...... STUPID.......IDIOT........ Just leave this crap aside >.<

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Pastor Dave came to our CF last night, and talked to us about setting New Year Resolution for ourselves... I myself never take up any new year resolution for the past 18 years, ever since I was born.....I dunno why but his encouragement and motivation seems to persuade and move me to take up a FEW new year resolution in this very year 2011.......

~ First, to be closer to GOD, to put Him first in everything...... I've been neglecting Him for so long and yet He never leave me nor forsake me
~ To STUDY real hard, or at least harder than before and score four A* in the upcoming AS as well as A2, if possible get "Top In The World" for Math =)
~ To know every one in KTT before I graduate from here, to at least know their name and spoke to them
~ To seriously get rid of addiction, which has been stuck to me for two long years.....
~ To be able to treasure every moment I have with my FAMILY..... Dad and Mum are getting older >.< and I will be leaving Malaysia next year.... I can't imagine what will it be like......
~To be able to interact and communicate POLITELY ( not in a rude or mean manner ) with people around me, so that they won't think that I'm so MEAN..........
~ Treasure my friends around me, 1.5 years in KTT is way too short for us to even waste one second.....
~ Serve in Church, now I'm able to serve in CF, and I MUST serve in Nilai Baptist or Patani Baptist.....
~ To come down to CamRev every single morning..... I made a Declaration last year, saying that I'll not miss CamRev for even 1 Day..... I must fulfill it .......
~ To think thoroughly before acting, I don't want to repeat my STUPID mistake last year, I've learnt my lesson, and I've paid a high price.......>.<
~ To slim down 10kilo....since I slimmed 20kilos in 2010, by God's grace =)
~ To show love to people around me, to be THICK-SKINNED..... to approach people I dunno and spread God's love .......
~ Finally, to be a more Christ-like person, to be able to understand HUMILITY, HUMANITY and OBEDIENCE.....

That's all for my new year resolution, I don't know whether can I achieved all of them in year 2011.....But I know who should I cling to, and seek in times of need.....This mere Declaration of New year resolution won't make it a reality, I'll have to bring all of these before my almighty Father.....For I know in Him, I can find confidence and success..... He'll lead me away from darkness into the truth and light, He'll guide me away from sin and temptation......

Every year will be the Greatest year of your life until then, because you will never know what will happen in the following year.....It's my choice to make it the best or the worst...... 2010 is the turning point of my life, God had seek and saved the lost.....He never lose hope in me, never lose faith in me........ And I know that my life will be an Amazing life when I put Him in the picture.........

I don't know what 2011 holds, but I know Who holds 2011, and I'm sure I will choose to hold on to Him who hold this very 2011......I can achieve anything not because I'm anyone or anything, it's solely because He is the Alpha and Omega, He is Everything.........

You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self,

which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds;

and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.

Ephesian 4 : 22 - 24

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Today is my best friend's birthday..........I nearly forget it...... Very sorry.....Yikuan @ Firelynx.......Anyway, thanks for being my friend for all these years.......God bless you in the new year, all the best in your future endeavour........ =)

Labels: CF, Christianity, complication, friends, philosophy

» Purity...

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

~ 1:40 AM ~

Talking about purity, this reminds me of the card that I found in Esther's purse, and it stated there that,"I will not have premarital sex" or something like that....and also this verse from the Bible:

You shall not commit adultery.

~ Exodus 20:14

This verse is pretty much known as the 7th commandment that God have given us through Moses... And to further prove how much God emphasize on this commandment, verses from Leviticus 20:10,Proverbs 6:32 etc... I myself knew very well that temptations are all around us, including me, and sometimes, I felt so weak that I nearly I nearly succumb to it.... I'm very glad that people like Edwin Loh, sort of like my mentor, he show me what a real Christian should be, the true meaning of perseverance and moral purity.... I've done wrong, I've fell, I've failed...Never feel like a good candidate to do God's work...Up till now, I can't really live a 100% morally pure life, that God desire and I desire....

Really felt like a moron, when I gave up myself, my principles, my so-called bible verses, and all those empty promises that I've made....This stupid thing have been haunting me, though I am quite happy with who am I, right now..... Really need someone to talk to, someone to pour out to..... Where are you, SOMEONE..... I haven't lose my faith, cause I know that He will be right beside me all the time.... TRUST shouldn't be betrayed, it's something very sacred, very fragile... It's not easy to gain one's trust, and if you lose it, it's even harder to regain it....

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I was on a Charity trip to "House of Joy" in Puchong, Taman Kinrara on the19 Dec, where we helped Orphans, Mentally disabled peoples, old folks to raise fund... I skipped church that week though...Things weren't very well, when we lost our way there.... Thanks to Garmin...

These kids were happy when the event was going on, but I really can see the true joy overflowing from every single one of them.... Same goes to us that gave our best to bring not only monetary blessing but also God's love and care, to the people.... I was so happy when I finally approach an adult, he suffered from certain mental disease, which makes him a bit slower than usual people....he said to me " Lu Kar Wua Yi La" in Hokkien, which means "you teach me how to play la".... I was nervous, but the feeling of satisfaction and gratefulness just came out from nowhere when I looked at him enjoying the game.... Forget to mention, this trip was organized by KTT Buddhist Society, and we were in-charging of games...

This whole trip was indeed a success, everyone were exhausted and seriously tired, but no one complain.... Indeed, it was a meaningful trip where we, who are blessed, can bless others in order to show God's love...

This is the first and greatest commandment.

And the second is like it: "Love your neighbor as yourself"

Matthew 22:38-39

The trip continues with an evening in Sunway Pyramid, which turned out to be less meaningful, less interesting, as compared to the charity work... What I did was hunting a gift for my friend whose birthday have already past, which was on the 13 Dec, and had dinner with my buddies in Sakae Sushi which did a large hole to my wallet.....what an ouch....

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Tonight's rehearsal went well, glad that my friends are joining the Christmas celebration, even though I will not be around that day.....and also happy to have watched both the choir and skit, love the Praise and Worship by Riss..... Anyway , I gotta go.... it's 1.40am........ Hope you enjoy ur earphones..... =)

Labels: CF, complication, friends, philosophy, school

» Busy Busy Week.......

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

~ 10:41 AM ~

Hi Blog, it has been quite awhile since I lasted visited you... Poor you......... >.< But anyway, I have good reasons, more like excuses for that..... keke...... I've been spending my first two weeks of the 2nd semester meaningfully.... haha....... First of all, I got back my Physics and Mathematics..... 94 and 96..... thank God... I'm quite happy with these 2 papers, still waiting for the other 2... I just do hope that I can make it to 20 rank points ( 4 A's ), like what I promised myself last Mid Semester.... Time is tough for those who didn't make it to the cut-off points, some may have put in effort, some may have not.... But, anyhow, prep......>.< sorry to mention this word, I know most of us don't wanna even bother the presence of prep class.... You know what, I think there is no big deal going to prep class it's just a night class where people gather in the library to do some revision... Doesn't seems so bad after all, right???? Okay, as for me, I'll aim for the better for the next examination, yesh ........=) and of course I won't sacrifice too much of my leisure time as well.......

Er, last Tuesday 7th Dec, yeah, correct date and day....... LOL, I met up with Gaston, ZhengDong, and HongShen in Midvalley, though it was just a short short meet-up, I just knew that it meant a lot to me, I cherished every single moment I spent with you all in Singapore, a foreign land, where I still find Friends, and Brothers like you all....I really got my DOTAing from you all..... And guess what, I've been improving myself since then .... =P ... Hey Gaston, miss all your "Ouches" and you retarded jokes..... I just knew that life is not as easy as it is over here in Malaysia...... but, I do know that all of you have been striving hard enough, not only to pass the cut-off points, but to top the whole cohort in St. Andrews Junior College....... I'm really happy to know that all of you are still doing so well..... =)

Lat weekend......It's been a long weekend, I rushed to Midvalled, once again......to meet CheeYao.....he has a weird looking hairstyle, but anyway, He have not change a little, as in his personalities...... still having his CheeYao-ness in him.... We watched The Chronicles of Narnia - The Voyage of the Dawn Treader.....

it was nice, but Narnia 1 and 2 are better, far better...... I just realised one thing, the Lion ( Aslan ), resembles Jesus in real world... Whoa..... I was puzzled that time..... >.< So noob.....Anyway, we got scammed RM5 each by the ticket seller.... Had some chatting, and then we are off to UCSI.....

It was so packed in the Commuter....Malaysia public transportation sucks.......>.< sucks to the core......And it took us nearly 1hour to go to Taman Conaught....where USCI students live... There are lots of Blackies there......And so, I met with Cheeyao's housemates - Ernest, Nicholas, Kelvin, Daniel and last but not least Lawrence Kiing..... I find Ernest an open guy to speak with as we travelled around Kuala Lumpur the next day... That day was awesome, going from mall to mall looking at exhibitions, tasting good food, looking at beautiful ladies, trying out new gadgets.....Cool sia....... haha.. Our first stop was for food..... Steamed rice, then Cendol.... I heard that that was the best Cendol stall in KL, it was nice, but I still don't think it's the best =) .....

Our journey, Time Square, Sungei Wang, Lao Yat, Lot 10, Fahrenheit, Outside of Pavilion, KLCC, PWTC then KL Sentral....... Lots of places, huh??? But I like the KLCC Digital Fairs...I just realised that Businessmen nowadays are so smart that they use Lenglui as a business strategy to attract customers, it was like the 美人计 in 孙子兵法.....the whole exhibition hall is spammed with good looking girls standing, promoting Digital stuff, but frankly, not all of them are pretty =P ...... Ernest, CYao and I was on a 70" LCD screen together with an Australian Singer and Pianist....... LOL, I just knew that she is a celebrities..... And I don't seem to know that I was so near to a famous singer, which I don't know....... Here is the picture of her, cause the one I took was a bit blur... Presenting DELTA GOODREM, doesn't sounds like a girl, rite??? LOL ...

All I knew is that she is gorgeous and so freaking tall, at least 185cm, I guess......It was really a nice experience with you Ernest, you are really a good Tour Guide and a friend... CheeYao, u are still yourself..... Not to forget, I finally met Jia Mei, my ex-roommate's ex and my ex-schoolmate's ex >.< Okay that's all for now.. Gotta go............... =)

p/s: sad that I can't be with you all during 22nd Dec for Christmas Celebration..... Sorry all .....=(

Labels: CF, event, friends, movie, school

» Met Up With Firelynx

Monday, December 6, 2010

~ 8:18 PM ~

Yeah, finally all the year-end stuff for my dad's clinic is finally done.... Hehe, and I get to go out and meet ONE of my friends, haha, of course, as I mentioned earlier, the noob Firelynx, hahahaha.... He seems fine, and I'm glad.... seriously.... But too bad time is limited..... Argh...... I never regretted spending the whole afternoon with my best buddy ever..... Haha, just remember to have a plan and aim in your life, and let everything goes with the flow =) .....Oh yeah, I owe you one FT run, haha.... I remember the last time I scolded you noob when you simply use battlemode......Hehe..... Never mind, now I'm pro enough hehe....

Seriously, I will really with the time I spend during Primary 5, playing Pokemon Red version, LOL, and got stone by you until I bleed like mad..... Stupid la you.... Hehe.... though we didn't spend much time during secondary school, I never doubted that our friendship would fade... =) Bro, all the best in your studies and future endeavour man..... Haha......

Aiksss, you know what I'm going back to KTT tomorrow morning... Hehe mixed feelings once again, Yop gave me a good news, LOL, his application to remain in ALL7 is approved, haha.... He will get to bug me all the time once again, haha... Sorry Yop, you are still my good buddy =)... hehe

Anyway, I'm looking forward to meeting Gaston, Hongshen, maybe Zhengdong and Candice tomorrow, see you all =).....

Labels: friends, home, school

» I gained weight

Saturday, December 4, 2010

~ 11:04 AM ~

As mentioned above, I've gained weight since the day I come back home...... Argh, Pain!!!!!!!!!!! But the thing is that food at home is so tempting....So so so so tempting.... It's time to get back in shape..... and KTT is just the perfect place to slim down, I just have to grab a loaf of bread from the MiniMart, and lock myself in the dorm..... No more, oily mamak food, no more mouth-watering INTI hawker food.... Hello, ButterScotch......I just hope that I won't get bored of you..... >.<

Sigh, 2 more days at home, I haven't meet up with Firelynx..... He is so busy, so am I..... Aiksss, he got lots of TUITION !!!!!, which I hated, A LOT.......but sometimes, we can't help it, cause our teachers in schools are way too NOOB..... NOOB NOOB NOOB...... Not to condemn, just stating FACTS..... I'll compliment good and dedicated teachers (lecturers) too, THANK YOU for all your hard work, I LOVE YOU ALL..... =)

Hehe....There are one thing I gotta mention, is that...I am glad that everything is in place, and the Baptism class last night went just fine.....I'll be baptised during this Christmas, Hooray.... =) It may not be significant to others, but it's very important to me......The problem is that I'm quite stucked with my old stupid habit.... I dunno what to say.....

When I am at KTT, I tends to miss home... Miss brewing the coffee, miss the scoldings from my dad, miss the hugs from my mum, miss the PK with my bro....too much to be mentioned.... On the other hand, I feel the same when I'm at home, I missed fellow KTTians a lot too, Soo, Kuang, Xiong, KianPoh, I can't list all of you down.....I love my "TRUE FRIENDS" gang, CF, classmates, housemates..... Miss you all.....I just hope that I can be like Geomancer or Chaos Knight or any other who can split themselves into 2 or more ..... Hehe.....

Mum and dad seems fine, I knew that even though there are fights sometimes..... God will hold them together.... I am very certain of that, and I'm very grateful of that....And being Christians, makes all the difference in us, we might not be perfect, but we knew what we are living on the right path.....

I love this 名句 by Mr Lau ( Counsellor in my Secondary school)... Here goes..
“做人最重要是要有原则; 有了原则，就算做不成好人，也不至于太坏。。。。”
Thanks, Mr Lau.... =)

Labels: family, friends, home, philosophy, school

» Done with my PhotoAlbum

Thursday, December 2, 2010

~ 4:55 PM ~

Everything is so fine at home, good food, cosy bed, dad, mums, bros.....And the best part is that my life at home is free from books and studies.... I am still stucked with the stupid "City Of Wonders", and the best part of all is that I met up with my old buddy, Firelynx, in Cabal.... hehe.... He haven't changed at all, still so noob =)... Haha...... And I spent 1500 bucks, just to get another nice looking outfit on the PC screen... sounds stupid, right ???? Anyway, I feel great after spending that much of money, haha.......

It seems that I am quite happy and carefree after ruining and flunking some of my final semester papers....... I still have faith and some hope that I can still achieve a 20 rankpoints, teehee... Oh yeah, YongKuang is back from Thailand, and he acted so "Sawadeekarp", so noob la him....... Swt... Anyway, I just hope that he'll get something Nice for me, haha........

I don't think it's good to judge people, but sometimes being human, we can't help it.... But, I've been trying seriously hard, and thanks to my good buddies around, reminding me from time to time... You know what, Joseph wasted his whole holidays, trying to beat me in "City Of Wonders", LOL, he is trying to achieve the impossibles, haha...........

I'm looking forward to meeting you, Cheeyao, next weekend, just hope that it'll no coincide with the CF meeting that will be held in Subang Jaya...... I really love the rainy weather back at home....... LIKE, LIKE, LIKE!!!! >.< Back to title, I finally finished the IMSO 2010, photo album, woohoo, and it took me two whole days..... And guess what, I have another Family Album to complete..... >.< Gotta go.......

p/s: I lose to my bro in DOTA, swt......noob.....

Labels: cabal, CF, family, friends, home

» Bye Seniors

Friday, November 19, 2010

~ 11:47 PM ~

It's nearly the end of my final semester in KTT, and our seniors have finished their A2, and started packing up, preparing to leave this place.... Time just flies, and good or bad moments are now becoming memories that are meant to be kept in the past.... Last two night was the Farewell Night for our CF's seniors.... And yeah, the farewell video was played for around 30minutes, but it took us days and nights just to edit it... Thanks to all for making this a successful night....

Something happened that night as well, something so sudden, so random, so unexpected.... A speaker, from Sabah, gave an awesome sharing, but due to his carelessness, there was a misunderstanding between our CF members, which may lead to division in our CF..... Thanks to God, that our president, I-vonne did a great job pulling us back together again by holding another meeting, which turned out to be a constructive one =)

I really can't believe the seniors are finally leaving us, too bad I don't have that much time to think about it... Exams are approaching, argh..... But on the good side, semester break is just after the exams =) I'll really have to continue to work till the last minute.... I'll do it like how I did my 2.4... =P Haha.....

Seniors, I'll really gonna miss you all.... especially you Edwin =( ......

Labels: CF, friends, school

» Tired.....

Saturday, November 13, 2010

~ 11:30 AM ~

Rushing to finish the AS syllabus for the upcoming Final Semester Examination.... I guess everyone is doing the same except some slackers who prefer to slack around... But anyhow, I managed to give myself some free time to cook for my fellow housemate and friends.... My fries were no longer soggy, it was crunchy last night... Everyone enjoyed it =P , haha.....

It's gonna be the last week for our seniors here, I'm really gonna miss them so much..... Just pray that God will continue to bless them, as they have taken care of us so much, ever since the first day we were here....

Continue studying.........

Labels: food, friends, school

» Last night at home....

Monday, November 8, 2010

~ 1:23 AM ~

This trip back was really really short and fast, it just disappear in a blink of an eye.... Just spend some time at home, some for the National Competition, and that's it, 5 days gone... This made me understand why "Time" is always a more preferable physical quantities than any other quantities... Poof, one semester nearly done in KTT, and examinations are approaching.... I left Singapore for nearly 5 months already.... And I left Sin Min Secondary for 1 year already... Can't imagine how fast can oneself grow, how fast can something start and end just like that, how long can our friends, families be around us..... What I am really grateful of is that, I am a blessed kid, with a awesome family, and a bunch of true friends being around with me all the time no matter where I am....

I am now on my cosy bed, staring at my screen, thinking back the last time I was back at home.....Millions of memories, sweet and bitter, are going here and there in my mind.... Some of them are permanent, but the others will fade over time.....What I regretted is that I can't make it to meet YiKuan this time, even though he took the effort to find me.... Time is really a limiting factor this time....Sorry bro...Just by reading the chinese characters on your blog, I can't stop thinking the moment we fought in school, playing "Pokemon", "Civilization 3", and "Cabal" together, the time during Kem Keselamatan Jalan Raya.... Things happened so fast, and look where are we now, who are we now, and what are we doing now... But, one thing I can be sure of is that you are my best buddy ever.....

Oh yeah, I was happy to have a little conversation with my new friend =) Mr Kiing, he is indeed a nice n "cute" guy... enjoy talking with him, even though there was a little misunderstanding between us few weeks ago... Who never make mistakes, right??? Anyhow, we are friends now, right, Mr Kiing??? Haha.... heard that you are glued to your chair, studying and mugging non-stop....Time to relax and catch a breath... Good luck in your exams anyway...(This applies to all UCSI students =P )

Finally, dad and mum talked, thank you God, problems are meant to be solved right??? It should work out this way, yeah..... Things are settled before I'm back to KTT for my final test... Hope to get 20/20 points, though I haven't really started any revision... will start the revision right after I get back there, "true friends" in KTT - Soo, YongKee, Xiong etc etc....keep an eye on me, thanks......We must excel in all internal exams, not only AS and A2 =) Gambateh....

Labels: friends, home